~Gloss~

2007-06-07T16:43:00.000+08:00

Darlings! I've moved to another blog... This one will still be here as I cannot transfer my old entries to my new blog..And because I have soo many pics that I dont want to let go with I'll still be keeping this blog open, without any new entries coming in... So keep this blog's link in ur blog and link my other blog up as well..

www.princessofherownworld.blogspot.com ... This is my new link!! yayness! LINK ME UP AR... or else....

2007-06-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

I'M SOOOOOOOO FREAKING BORED CAN?????!!!???? I'm soo bored that i feel like crying.. maybe it's just me being PMS-sy or the fact that I've been staying at home for god knows how long???!??

I think i'm going kookoo..... Pls help me can? Ask me out.. If i stay home any longer, I'll really go crazy!!!!!

2007-06-01T12:51:00.000+08:00

I'm in love!!
I've finally found my baby, well he found me.
He found me last week. I know it's too fast but I cant help but fall in love with him!
You would too, if you were me..

He is there for me day or night. He sings to me all the time. He knows how to make me smile when I feeling bummed out. He's there to put me to sleep at night. He gets along well with my sister too. He is looked up to by many. And I love him for that.

He dose not hurt me. He wont scold me or call me names. He never shouts. All he wants is someone who can listen to what he says. He is my 'McSteamy' lol

He is my baby.
His name is Billy Nair.
He is my Ipod Shuffle.
He is Billy Nair the Ipod!!

HURHUR!!!!!
(you cann all start saying @%^#^@&&!@@%@#!$@#!$@#@$ now hurhur)

tata my darlings!

2007-05-28T16:12:00.000+08:00

So I went to Tangong Pinang with my family for a bit of R&R. Good food and good massages= happy ME!

Shopping for clothes is somewhat non-existent when we go there, coz the locals there are soooo small in size that the adult size L over there is our size S.. so yar.. But I manage to find three very cute dress tops. soo cute with flower printings..

BUT, we bought LOADS of tidbits... I tell u... and LOADS of salted fish and ikan bilis.(my dad la, his fav!)

Then on saturday, Ivy asked if i wanted to some shopping at bugis. so why not? lol.. met up with Denise at the 334 bus stop and went to meet Su fang, her friend, Fifa and Joy. Had a fulfilling gossip session with them on the train. lol..

Ate a LJS again *drools*. Ivy and her friend went to shop first. So me, Den, Fifah and Joy when to Junction to cam whore. Went to the neo place and took tons of pics..... With our phones.. lol (cheapo ar...lol)

pics time!:

One of the 3 tops i bought from TP..*grins like a mad girl*

Cheapo pic No.1. this one is cheapo with class.. even got border one.. lol

Cheapo pic No.2. Joy your teeth sooooo wide ar.. lol

Cheapo pic No.3. Eh Eh.. who's wonderful hp is that ar?? Huh? Huh? lol...

They all said that this pic look like we were lying on a bed.. lol My lesbian lover.. lol JK!!!

The pornstar from within.. lol

this girl cannot resist kissing me lah..

The cannot make it's...

The step fierce and the fugly.

Hur hur kiss me too much and I'll tend to bite.. lol.. (even in clod storage we can cam whore lah)

Ok.. that's all girlies...

I love all of u..

Sentosa trip on the 9 june and i cant wait...

some of us have surprise for u all.. lol

oh oh!!! i dyed my hair again!! this time it's reddish brown.. under the sun it looks red!!

You like? I like!!! oh and pls excuse the auntie auntie dressing.. lol

ok tata darlings.

2007-05-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

You are fine
You are sweet
But I'm still a bit naive with my heart
When you're close, I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak
I feel sparks
But I don't wanna be into you
If you are not looking for true love,
No I don't wanna start seeing you
If I can't be your only one

So tell me when it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say it's alright?
Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away

When you call I don't know
if I should pick up the phone every time
I'm not like all my friends
who keep calling up boys.
But I don't wanna be into you
If you don't treat me the right way
See, I can only start seeing you
If you can make my heart feel safe

When it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me fell better?
Will you say alright?
Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away

Let me know if it's gonna be you
Boy, You've got some things to prove
Let me know that you'll keep me safe
I don't want you to run away so
Let me know that you'll call on time
Let me know that you won't be shy

Will you wipe my tears away?
Will you hold me closer?
When it's not alright
When it's not ok

Say that it's gonna be alright.
That it's going to be ok.
Don't run away.
Say ok...

2007-05-21T14:14:00.000+08:00

Instead of using milk with Coco Crunch, try using packet Milo!!!!! It will blow your mind!!

But dont be like me and add tooooo much Coco Crunch, OR ELSE you'll feel like puking.. lol GO ON!! TRY IT!!!

2007-05-17T14:53:00.000+08:00

Met up with my 2 darlings on tues for dinner and then again ytd at orchard. Went to IMM to have dinner on tues. And i swear, the western food in bagus is million times better than what i had at swensens lah.. We bitched like girls gone wild. It was just a perfect ending to my night. And me being the wonderful self that I am, I brought them cheesecake! See i SOOOOOO GOOD TO MY DARLINGS! lol...

Then ytd, I went all the way to woodlands to meet the two of them who made me stand at the station like one kuku like that... nb.. lol... made our way to town.. and of course we cam-whored!! Main purpose was to find the seoul garden at taka.. After god knows how long and how many floors we went up, we found it and left taka asap..

But before ALL that we went to fill our tummies with yummy LJS. I is in love with fish and chips with tar tar sauce! Took LOADS of pics! then walked till our feets ached like hell.. decided to have dessert at Coffee Bean.... I had my wonderful Malibu Dream after soo long.. and even more wonderful mudpie!!! *drools*

Oh Oh and someone had 3!! mashed potatoes from 711!!!!!!!! *shakes head*

thank god for chilled water ar the 3 of us.. lol.....

p/s: U all know hu my 2 darlings ar rite..... lol.. just realized i never put up their names!!!! lol

p/p/s: Next mth 3 of us go coffee club ok!! Save save!

2007-05-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

Yummy Mars bar Cornflakes Cookies....

Step 1: Go down to the mama-shop under your block and buy 2 or 3 mars bars and conflakes if you dont have them.

Step 2: Resist the temptation of ripping open the mars bars and eating them.

Step 3: Cut mars bars into pieces of 3 or 4 ( it does not really matter).

Step 4: Take a bit of butter and melt it in a pot.

Step 5: Add the mars bars into the pot and aloow it to melt. Make sure you keep on stirring it or else the chocolate will burn.

Step 6: Crush in the cornflakes. You can put in as much as you want. Stir.

Step 7: Scoop out chunks of the sticky cornflakes and put it into cups.

Step 8: Enjoy. Pack some and send it to me. Thanks.

Pictures of my cheesecake!

*drools*

*drools even more*

*drools EVEN more* someone hand me a tissue!

2007-05-14T15:43:00.000+08:00

Pic log.

Friday Night High

Fruities: Suji, Ling Ling, Rinah, Ivy, Zarry, Ah Chai, XYW, Den Den and those who were missing, Val(taking the pic), Dama, Fifah and Ida

Candid shots.

Asrinah's chicken baked rice which joy helped to finish. lo

My darling and I

Den den Ling ling and Ivy.

I want to kill her for eating CHICKEN infront of ME!

My heavenly sticky chewy chocolate. Shabirrr...I ate ice cream. My girls very bad.. all whip out their hp's to call my mom.. lol

Jurong west girls. We literally live 5 mins walking distance from each other.

one of the MANY unglam pics.

Val: 1, Ivy: 2 , joy counting fail instead of 3 she show 5.. tsk tsk..

ling ling wants her cherry.. sounds really bad..

This girl no shame ar.... not her birthday oso go order the b'day ice-cream.. we even sang her a B'day song.. No shame.. lol

Our bill came up to $189++.. and my fish wasnt even good at all.. and the lovebirds.

Ivy:'I wanna be Spiderman!!" Joy:' yeah rite....' lol

zarry's tummy was aching...

so we decided to molest her to make her feel better..

Very very lame ass pics of us..

Somemore lame ass pics of us.

Random rose.. + my foot..

summer romance..

I love you my darlings... It was soooo good to finally meet up with u guys after god knows how long.. Can we meet up earlier.... we can meet up in small small groups coz not everyone will be free.. I cant wait for 2nd june!!

Mommy's Day

This year, we did not know what to buy for my mom cos she always wont tell us what she really wants.. all she says is 'I want you all to get good grades' and since none of us are schooling we didnt know what to get her.. hurhur..

So the day before my bro and I made cheesecake for her and my aunty *Drools*. And we booked a table at Sakura International Buffet at West Coast there... But all the while we told her we were going to a coffee shop at west coast for the nasi lemak.. lol

Ok, I'll just shut up and let the pics do the talking..

Soo cute rite.. Ready to go to Sakura!

Mommy and her two angels.

Mommy's lil darlings.

Food!!!! but i couldnt eat most of them.. lol

Caught in the act.. lol

Daddy always dreams of going to japan.. for now he just enjoys shashimi.

Awww.... soo sweet....

The carrot ppl... my bro and aunty...

This woman the 'It' girl for oats prawns lah.. which by the way.. i took for her one..

Papaya love

aunty ar.... can smile anot ar!!! scary u know..lol

kueh lapis kueh lapis.. satu, dua, tige, ampat, kueh lapis....

*drools* cheesecake and chocolate mousse cake... but i still think my cheesecake taste better.. lol

Dragon fruit... eeee...

we were suppose to look full and bloated... my sis spoiler lah

she trying to be me. trial no.1.. cannot make it..

trial no.2.. Mom made me laugh..

trial no.3.. u bloated lah... cannot smile lah gong...

which just goes to show, i'm the better actor.. lol

My beautiful mommy

My fatty scandal.. he is two timing me with my sister!!!

My crazy brother.

My happy family.

My aunty who really needs to learn how to smile.

My wonderful parents. Mom trying to pose like me and sis do.. dad is just too cute lah..

I love you mommy and you dont need mommy's day to know that...

tata my darling... this is a very tiring post... my butt is numb...

2007-05-12T17:06:00.000+08:00

I can FINALLY blog about my acceptence to SHATEC!!! After giving all my girls a heart attack, telling them that i did not get in and was going to work in a factory till next year.. LOL.. I really cannot belive ALL of them fell for it!!! hahhahahaah.... It was sooooo fun to see their reaction la.. esp fifah's... soo touched. She would have started crying in the middle of Bugis if I did not tell her the truth la.. lol... Oh and thanks Shabir for follow me to shatec that day..

Anyhoo.... I'll be doing my Dip in Tourism Managment on the 9th of July. The down part: I still have to wear uniform. But I like the uni la.. The up part: I get to buy heels! lol and I wanna buy the crocs pumps too.. coz all that know me knows I can be in heels for very long.. lol.. So, WHO WANTS TO GO SHOPPING WITH ME??? lol

Change of topic.

Ytd, met up with all my darlings except fot ida and fifah!! had dinner with them at swensen marina. It's been soooo long since I saw them.. hmm.. the last time was when we caught 'Storm the yard' at cine.. so yar.. thanks to my cheena minah, our pervertness came out.. lol all we left with is water lah I tell u.. lol bitched loads with my darling den den.. lol *hush hush* But i didnt really like my 'grilled fish sambal' too bland..... but the sticky chewy chocolate was heaven lah!!!! (yes shabir I ate ice-cream.. heehee.. Close one eye ok..)

After that went over the Esplanade.. took loads of pics and we made soooo much noise that everywhere we went in esplanade the security had to come up to us and ask us to shut up.. lol
Well he told us to keep it down lah.. along the way we played soccer.. imagine 9 girls wearing dress tops and what nots, playing soccer.. lol

Oh.. the pics I took have yet to be uploaded.. and yiwen still have not send any to us.. So that will be another post on it's own.

ok lah.. next entry will be more interesting.. lol

tata my darlings.

P/S: sooo sorry for making XYW, Den Den, Ling Ling and Rinah wait for me for an hour to get to je.. heheh
And Shabir... I STILL WANT MY PATRICK BACK!!!!!!!! lol

2007-05-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

I'm over your lies
And i'm over your games
I'm over you asking me
When you know I'm not okay
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be telling me
I know you 're not alone

I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt

Moving on, it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I'm so over it

Dont call, dont come by
Aint no use dont ask me why
You'll never change
There'll be no more crying in the rain
I'm over it

So over it..

I just love this song..

2007-04-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

Ok....

So I'm like really bored!! And I came across this site.. which lets you do surveys and all... so i'm going to do some and put down the results... Just for fun k!

Survey 1: What's your porn star name?
Result: My porn star name is 'Spanky Bottoms'.- LOL!!!! No comment...

Survey 2: What Do Guys Think Of Your Hair?
Result: Smart, optimistic, easy going.You're the thinking man's ideal woman - bright, funny, and no drama. - I agree with all but the no drama part.. lol Me? No drama? Soo not true man.

Survey 3: What's Your Inner Gender?
Result: My inner gender is female.. Thank god..

Survey 4: What Kind of Sandwich Are You?
Result: You Are a Grilled Cheese Sandwich. You are a traditional person with very simple tastes.In your opinion, the best things in life are free, easy, and fun.You totally go with the flow. And you enjoy every minute of it! Your best friend: The Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich. Your mortal enemy: The Ham Sandwich. - It's sooo sad that i cant eat cheese.... lol

Survey 5: What Tattoo Should You Get?
Result: You Should Get An Asian Inspired Tattoo.. - I'd rather get a flower on my ankle..lol

Survey 6: How Evil Are You?- i really want to know this.. lol
Result: You Are 34% Evil.. A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil. - MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Ok.. Stick a fork in me, I'm done..
So i'm bored..
dum-dee-dum-dee-dum...
Ok ok.. I'm serious now..
I'm done..
bye bye

2007-04-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

For thoes who dont know.. I've been going back to JVS to help out the Indian dance for their Speech Day. Gawd.. I miss performing for speech day.. esp the one when i was in Sec 4. coz I performed with the Indian dance instead of Choir.. What can i say, I love to dance.

So anyhoo, I'm sooooo proud of my students. They were awesome. The crowd went wild when they came on stage, though I cant say the same for any of the other groups. And if you saw them for the full dress rehersal on mon ( speech day was on fri by the way) you will know why i feel sooooooooooo falalalala proud of them.

IN YOUR FACE ZAINAH!

The kids kept on calling me teacher.. lol... so cute. hopefully I'll really get to be a teacher some day.

My sis came down on the day to do the make up for the girls.. while I did the guys. And as always she did a wonderful job!

The girls:

this is nanthini. The motor mouth.

this is alifah. The girl with the moves.

This girl sooooo cute lah. Melissa.

Ishwari. very timid at first. but after awhile she was so funny.

Farah. The girl who knows every indian guy and annoys the crap out of everyone by asking if you know them too..

I did not take any pic of the guys... so sad.. they were all soo cute lah...

The whole group. See the boys all soo cute rite.. all sec 1 except Mukmin.

The group with Mrs Krishnan.. Her 'act cool' pose soo adorable.. lol

Oh and before I forget. If not for shabir pestering me to come down and help I would not have this much fun lah.

Thanks bitch. He has issuse with taking pics on his own.. haiz..

The original bitches. Had soo many wonderful times together. non stop laughter and making fun of tamiyacar and panji. (tamiyacar and panji are Mrs suresh and Miss khatijah)

This is the only picture I manage to take of them onstage. Bloody Mr. Lee block me.. Coz the rest of the dance i was screaming away. And because I was at the back of the hall everyone in the audience kept on turning back to see who was the mad one screaming.. lol

For some reason I just love this picture of me!! lol.. Talk about being vain huh.. lol

ok thats bout it..

p/s: If I spelled any of your names incorrectly,I'm sorry kays..

tata my darlings!

2007-04-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

Can everyone just STOP IT with the jokes about me being able to sleep late and not needing to do homework and stuff!!!! It's irritating the SHIT out of me.

JUST BECAUSE I DONT HAVE A SCHOOL TO GO TO DOES NOT MEAN I DONT HAVE THINGS TO DO! I MAY HAVE JOKED ABOUT IT AT TIMES. BUT FOR YOU GUYS TO JOKE ABOUT IT ONCE, IT'S OK. TWICE, FORGIVABLE. BUT MORE THAN THAT AND IT GETS HURTFUL AND ANNOYING. AND FOR YOU GUYS TO GO: 'OH OK, I HAVE TO GO TO SLEEP ALREADY, UNLIKE SOMEONE WHO GETS TO LAZE AROUND THE WHOLE DAY'. IT IS EFFING ANNOYING OK

If you think having nothing to do the whole day for the next few months is SOOO BLOODY great, why dont you try it? I'll be more than happy to take your place and go to school. You guys have no idea how lucky you guys are to be schooling right now. NO EFFING CLUE!!

So the next time you want to say anything to me about being lucky i get to stay at home and not worry bout school: JUST SHUT UP!

2007-04-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm finally back from Malaysia.. FINALLY, I got to see my favourite cousins.. they are sooo grown up considering their age.. And sooo bright.. So impressed with all four of them. I miss them already..Going to be another year before i see them again..

Anyway I'm SO NOT satisfied with the shopping i did/did not do.. lol.. I dont know why.. Did not have the mood AT ALL..

KLCC had the most gorgeous things there.. but i felt soo guilty when i looked at the prices of some of the clothing there... so that was gone.. and when we went to melaka.. All i wanted to do was to poop...( and u may or may not know this but i only ever poop in my house, not even in a hotel) lol So i was not in a very good mood to shop.. lol

so this was what i bought...
1) 1 sports shoe
2) 1 sandal/slipper
3) 2 tops.

and thats it.... thus my darlings I didnt buy back anythings for u.... I is very sorry...

I miss you girlies like hell man!!!!!! dont tell me that movie date will be the last time we meet... i'll track you down and punch your face till ALL your teeth drop!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAH

2007-04-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

Dum dee dum dee dum......

Have I told you I'm freaking bored... And having mood swings while being at home is not a good combo, let me tell you that. I feel like I'm in Pre-Post-Current-PMS mode. lol.. and it's not fun.. AT ALL.

I'm not having fun because EVERYONE seems so busy ALL the time. It gets abit annoying when I sms people and they dont reply me in like 20 mins. Esp when i need their reply right away. Instead they choose to reply a day later. Which pisses me off even more..

Well looks like we wont get what we wanted..

good bye.

2007-03-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

As days pass us by, I can feel all of us drifting away from each other.. Can you? If you cant, maybe you are in denial.....

2007-03-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

confused feeling.. lost.. bored.. hurt.. left out...

2007-03-08T18:38:00.000+08:00

Ok so for the people who have not been living under a rock for the past week, you all would know that:

(1) I quit my job at Seoul Garden. lol

It wasnt like I was hate the people there.. those guys were awesome!! soo down to earth and funny.. the job was not that bad either except for when it was rush hour and if it was friday!! i tell you.. singaporeans can eat ALOT lah!! I left coz the environment was affecting my skin...

There was this once i wanted to kill this chi-no-nae guy.. his group wanted a grp shot at seoul garden. so ok la.. i offered to help.. so all of them posed already.. then this bloody chi-no-nae made kissy sounds to get my attention.. like hello!!! i have a name tag.. cant u read.. this was what he said "*kissy sounds* oi.. can you take a proper one. oi.. you know how to take anot" LIKE HELLO!!! you are talking about a cam whore here.... i tell you if he were to call me oi again, i was going to throw his freaking-cheapo-no-brand-cam into the soupbowl.. bloody retard...

That was the only off moment.. lol

(2) I dyed my hair!!

Did it like a few weeks ago.. with my sis... bronzy base with blonde highlights.. for the first few days the blonde was very In-your-face bright!! but now its not soo bad.. lol....

And (3) I am now a vegetarian.. aslo due to my skin..

Being vegetarian is not as bad as you guys thing.. i know that people assume you can only eat salads if you are a vegatarian... but there is soo many diff styles of cooking to choose from...

Went out with my sis and her friend Preyaz the other day.. became my sis's threading *cough* victim*cough*.. lol.. then went to toa pah yo and ate at Sizzler- Salad bar... they had tuna, chicken, pastas, soups!!! they had mushroom soup!! My fav!!!! and they had ice cream!!! lol...

Me with my tuna/salad and mushroom soup!!! Yummy...

Me and the sister with our salads and soups.. lol

After that went on to orchard to look around and shop for pretty pretty undies..lol

Went to chill at starbucks and gossiped!!! my god can they gossip lah.. lol

malibu dreams...

The sister and preyarz... i know i know the sis and me both wearing green... lol

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oh oh oh!!!!!

I'm going to advertise for my sis here...

My sister has magic hands.. Her skills with makeup is the best lah... She is great!!! She does makeup for any occasion... be it birthdays or weddings..

she was playing around with her makeup and did a makeover on me...

Before:

After:

The diff is huge!!! she can do drastic or mild....

If anyone wants their makeup done by her... let me know ok!!!!

2007-02-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

Went out with my pandis'. Went with the intention of finding work.. heehee.. Ended up in Bugis at Seoul Gardens for an interview..

In the end all 3 of us got the job, but sadly my ida behbeh not going to work with us due to some reasons..*sobsob*.. so it's just fifah and me.. i hope fifah starts work with me on thurs...*cross fingers* hehehe

YES! Suji FINALLY GETS A LIFE!! lol yay!!!

So pls do not come to Bugis Seoul Garden.. i do not want to serve u.. lol.. hehehe...

ok all this is like soooooooooooooo super random huh... wait la very soon all my entries will bout complaining bout work..hehehe

2007-02-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

I'm here, when will you make your move?

Things have been really random around here.. Wake up, watch tv or use the lappie, eat, sleep. haiz.. this just repeats everyday.. except for when we head to fifah's to lepak2 abit.. lol or just go out to hang.. haiz.. soooo bored...

I need to get a job like seriously, i need to get out of my home.. Suji needs to get a life..

It's a good thing that feelings can fade away...

2007-02-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
they can go too.

I think I could like you
but i keep holding back
Cause' I cant seem to tell
if you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are..

2007-02-16T16:25:00.000+08:00

Spent V'day with my girls! Me, Ida, Fifah, Zarry and Ivy. Decided to go to siloso!

I tell you, I wont be eating tuna anytime soon. lol.. The whole day we ate tuna sandwiches, nuggets and hotdogs! lol

OH YAR... this crazy man was soo freaky.. when we were boarding the 97 bus he was beside us. and he ask ' nak pergi sentosa ke? saye nak ikut bohle tak?' sorry if the spelling is wrong.. lol.. but u know what i mean.. and he sat just infront of us. so when we alighted the bus, we went to the food court frist so that he would go to sentosa first and not stalk us..lol..

On the sentosa bus. I LOVEEE my shades!

Me and fifah. shades-crazy!

We we digging a hole for fifah to go in. sadly she did not want to do it!!! humpt!!

zar and fifah. the only two who went into the seawater.. hur hur..

ANTB.. only we know what it means..

Feeling retro at the beach ivy?

One of the three tuna spread-ers

the sun was freaking HOT lah.. OMG!!

Aaaaaa... the cold water... siok!!!!!

squash!!!

peek-a-boo... ida our 'porn' director for the day took this.. lol

after our wonderful bath.. the two of the 3 tuna spread-ers. lol.. zarry was damn slow!! lol

waiting to see the musical fountain..

Let's count! 1..

2..

3..

4..

5..

6...yay!!

They did not have the two huge ass fireball thingy at the end.. dissapointed..

zar asking for 'rokok'.. lol

I love making this face.. i influenced fifah and my sis!! lol

bossom buddies.. lol

no comment..

raffles and thai dancer... lol

i engraved our names on the sand!! lol

random....

ending off with this pic that i really like.. lol

thanks girlies for a wonderful crazy and laughter-filled day!!!

2007-02-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

I have the most supportive parents in the world!! I love my mom and dad for not looking down on me and scolding me bout my results like most moms and dads do. We always take for granted the love and support our parents give us. The hours they put in i work just so they can earn money for us to live in comfort and have food to fill our tummy. But how do we thank them? By skipping school, lying to them, telling to stop nagging when they advide us and all the stupid we do to put them to shame. Have we really been a good child to them.

I know neither of them read my blog.. Maybe my mom does.. But I just really love them to bits and i never tell them this enough.. I really should. I LOVE U AMMA AND ACHA!!

I'll work hard!

2007-02-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is THE DAY. The day which will make or break my future. O'level results. Expectations are soo high even though no one tells me to the face. I know they expact me to get good grades and make them proud. But the question here is:can I?

God, my hands are shaking, my eyes are burning from the constant crying. They all think i can do it. But i really dont know. Having the pressure to get perfect results like my sister and brother even though it's not said i know they are thinking it. I know they have high hopes for me. And i'm scared to get back my results. I'm scared to see the dissapointment in my families faces. I'm scared to even go home if i dont do well. I dont know what to do if i do badly. I cant go home with results like that. I just cant. I dont want to see my parents faces drop if i do badly. I feel like i've been a dissapointment to them all these years and i cannot take it anymore. I dont want to let them down anymore.

They dont know how hurt I am when they say 'let's see if u can pass first' even if they meant it as a joke, it really hurts. like they know i'm going to do badly. Like they have lost hope in me. All my insercurities are back. I just feel so god damn depressed. And i HATE IT!!!

2007-02-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

I spent my whole day at fifah's house.. Eating sara lee's choco pound cake and drinking sparkling wine! watching movies till i almost fell asleep... It's now 1.45am on the dot.. talking crap to fifah on MSN.. and bitching bout psycho's we know...

Random things like this makes me go tra la la HAPPY!!

I love my two PANDIs

2007-01-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

This entry is for my two darlings.. I dont know why I just feel like talking bout them.. lol

For the people who know me, you will know who they are. Fifah(my twin) and Ida(my minah). I've known fifah from week 2 of sec 1 and ida was in the same class as me but we did not really talk to each other that much, this was until we were is sec 3 when ida joined our group. From there everythign started...

The recess-gossip sessions, the bitchings after school, the shoppings, the hanging out at fifah's house playing with her sister, the deeparaya visits, the plain laughing bout nothing, the both of them having a kick at teasing me. the countless neos we took, just the three of us.

We just need each other, the 3 of us, to go out.. the most fun times without any fights or back-stabbing or being dragged to places we dont wanna go.

We can tell each other anything and we do tell each other everything. Boys, bitches, irritants, clothes, makeup, work, bloody line leaders at work, school, teachers we hate in school, people around us. I miss going to school to bicth with them. But hey we see each other every week just to eat or ton in fifah's house..

I LOVE YOU TWO PANDI!!!

ps: i just realized that all of us were doing the same pose.. lol..

2007-01-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored right now i might just try to count how much hair i have on my head..

Well, maybe i wont.. but if i did, atleast i'll have something to do what.. But if i try to count how much hair i have on my head, I'd have to pluck every single strand of hair from my head. That will lead me to become bald. But I dont want to be bald because I love my hair. But i need something to do thus the idea of counting how much hair i have on my head. But i really dont want to be bald. So what do I do?

ANSWER IS: Sujitha, what you need to do is get a life.

now i've wasted excatly 2 mins of your day. 5 mins for those who are slow at reading.

tata my darlings!

2007-01-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Hear me when I say,
when I sayI believe nothings gonna change,
nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly.

To a close friend, I know life feels like shit to you now.. But it will find a way to make things better.. just keep holding on.. I'll be here for you..
much love.

2006-12-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

Emotional breakdown: Such a shitty feeling..

*prepare for the water works of sujitha...

2006-12-16T17:33:00.000+08:00

Bangkok soo rocked! Just the four of us. Joanne, Jason, Sis and me! 3 roses and a torn. Haha.. Felt abit uneasy going to another country with them at first (note: 7-8 years of age diff), but that all faded away the moment I reached the airport.

This whole holiday was soooo fun la.. The best shopping spree, the best food, the best body massages: all with the best company, who can complain you tell me. Can we do this every year? *looks at daddy and mommy with puppy dog eyes*

Yummy-licious carrot cake served by yucky Swiss ariways.

Breakfast the next day was ooo lala.. But we got sick of it after 4 days. Joanne and me.

At chatuchak market! Bargain hunters galore!! Loving my new aviators!

At Mambo. The 'women' in the poster are men for your information. HUR HUR! We went to an aqua show! I'm trying to pose like 'it' but cannot make it lah.. lol. They were soo pretty lah. So depressing for us. their body, hair, make-up and their clothes... but I know, You know they are all FAKE. That's how we made ourselves feel better. The show was so funny!

Inside the mambo theater.. I like this pic of us..

Joanne and Jason. They were soo cute, dancing along the pathway. Passer-bys were giving that 'Awww' smile.

From this collage we can conclude that Jason loves to take pics too.. He is worst than my sis! lol Pose here pose there.. lol.. what to do, if you cant beat them join them rite.

The stuffs that we bought from bangkok covered the whole bed, and this is not everything, There was more on the floor. Huge-ass shopping spree or what!! All the things we bought from MBK and chatuchak. I love the way the thais say madam. Like this: Mah-daam. heehee.

ACCESSORIES!!! A earring for less than a dollar! Like my sis says ' Dont buy, stupid ar!' lol. we counted and found out we bought 27 accessories!

The last day, before heading to the airport. At the hotel lobby. I love the hotel lobby, very old-school english like.

Sis factor.

Savadeecaap!

With this pic I'll end this entry. I feel the same way as my sis. We really did get to bond with each other through this holiday. We never got to be open with one another at home.

Till the next entry.. And I know, I still have the Hongkong trip to blog about.. It may take some time okay..

Hugs and Loves. Take care!

2006-11-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

The very very very very loooooong awaited photos!!!! Okay to satisfy your eyes.. There are 46 pics all together.. Yes... I counted.. This took me very long to do ok.. my butt hurts.. i started at 3. 45 pm and it's 5.50 pm now.. So yar.. enjoy!!! I'll have more pics when I come back from hongkong kays?!?

JVS Grad Nite 2006

All dolled up thanks to my sis. Retro fever. Was waiting from Den and Ling to come to my house.

My darling and me. Runner-up Miss JVS.Ling Ling and me. Her simle is sooo cute lah.. lol

Miss Kahlidah and me. I just love her to bits. My MINAH!! lol

My sister from another mother.. From week 2 of Sec 1 till now.. I love you fifah.

Asrinah and me. 5 years in the same class. We have been sitting beside each other for all of thoes years.

Mr. JVS and me. Will we have an N5 comeback next year pin?

She stole my colour - green!! lol Dama-mama and me!!

The mother and her daughter. I never knew my daughter would be older then me. lol Joyful Joy

She is the japanese-doll. We have a fetish for nails!! Val and me

She is adorably cute!! Although she can be freaky at times. Miss Teo Yiwen.

Miss ah-go-go and miss retro. Ivy lim su fang!!!!

This maple and prison break freak is zarinna. The humpty dumpty of our group!!

The best Science teacher any student could have. She made me have fun with science.

Table 24! We were by far the noisiest table that day!!! And we loved it!

Miss fiza and me. I want your hairband!! (what went wrong?)

Her top and my dress were of the same colour!! lol Si Ling and mua..

My junior.. My pet name for her: Chucky!

We had fun killing each other during the musical. Greed and Envy. Me and Ester. My junior.

Me, Miss JVS-eevin and fifah. Eevin is sooo cute.. just like a hamster.. lol

Ling ling, shi jie, me and asrinah.

One of the many shots of the after-party.

I really LOVE this picture!! We are good girls, we dont drink. the bottle are Ice leamon tea and snapple!!

What can i say. The lips people! Just look at the lips! Kissy kissy!

Deepavali

Early in the morning+ Saris+ lack of sleep= Two very uncomfortable sisters.

Bollywood anyone? I love my swing!!!!! I love my hair!! I love my Sari! I'm one happy girl!

Hehe.. I kinda like this pic.. Now, I'm not crooked ok. You can say I love my sis.. Abit too much?

Okay lah I went back to my nice side and took a nice pic with the sister.. lol

Okay okay, I admit, I am a cam whore.. but I learned from the best *looks over to my sis* lol

The pandis' nicely eating without me.. lol My darls who came visiting!

Like hello?!? Excuse me?!? It's suppose to be a candid shot ar people. You were not suppose to pose for the camera.. And denise, It's rude to dig your nose in public.. lol.. just kidding..

Ah-lian's Act cute pose.

Formal pic of the nite. We had loads of fun. They even wanted me to go down and play BB with them.. IN A SARI!! NUTS!!!

Hard work put in to do this.. Done by sis and bro. Helped by me!! hehe

Last O'level paper!

Formal: The 12 of us. Always together.

Informal: The 11 of us. dama-mama took the pic!

Yippee!!! No more EXAMS!!!! GOODBYE JVS!!!!

Okay, I'm NOT teaching fifah a indian dance move ok.......

... I was, however, teaching her how to pose for this pic!! lol.. Three gals you will see in Hongkong in 2 days!!

Okay... Both you and I know what this picture looks like.. But the ball is NOT about to hit my boob.. OKAY!! It just happen to fly pass and it sooo happened to be in that area...

Me. All smiles.. No more exams and teachers for another 3 months or so.. I'm soo loving it!

Pictures taken in class

5N2 gals.. well... those who showed up anyways.. lol

5N2 most wanted! Sorry guys, no reward given if found.. Nini and I just had our hair rebonded!! hehe.....

We LOVE our Maths and Science teacher.. From left to right: Mdm Pek, Miss Wong, Mr Ng!

We had a very fulfiling cam-whoring session!! I was trying to kill tyra, but, sadly i failed.. hurhur

Suji,Rin,Nini.. Always be known as the 'Gloss Babes'

2006-11-21T16:17:00.000+08:00

here's a survey from yong ting that i gotta do...

*1. are you a chinese or english freako?

@ I an english person. thank you very much.

*2. if time is going to stop, what will you possibly do during that time?

@ well, wouldnt i freeze in a sopt if time were to stop?

*3. prefer to play pool or the playground?

@ cant play pool for nuts, so I'd rather play in a playground which has a swing! and which has sand and not that rubber-y thing. its hard to find playgrounds of that sort nowadays huh?!?

*4. do you usually gossip on others; being gossip?

@ I gossip.. well who doesnt love a good gossip? lol..As for being the gossip, i have no comment.

*5. do you like simple or complicated stuff?

@ I like simple things. Give me a good book and a cup of milo and I'm a happy person!

*6. do you tackle numbers or alphabets better?

@ Okay.. My spelling sucks like badly.. I'd say I'm better with numbers then spelling stuff.. but strangely, I'm better in my English than Maths. *sigh*

*7. what makes u pissed off?

@ Good question. I get pissed off when anyone calls me on the hp when I'm sleeping. When people are not straight-to-the-point with me. When people copy who I do stuff. So you have been warned.

*8. how's your childhood?

@ So far my childhood have been filled with loads of cartoon watching, crying, laughing and good memories.

*9. do you have inspiration without perspiration?

@ I dont answer questions which makes no sense at all...

*10. do you think 24 hours is too short, too long or just nice?

@ It's too long when you are in school. It's too short if you are having you holidays and have tons of homework to pass up the next day.

*11. would you judge a people by their appearance?

@ Everyone judges a person by their appearance no matter what sub-conciously. After that, judge a person by their attitude and their actions.

*12. what is attractive in your eyes?

@ In my eyes, a simple smile can be attractive.

*13. do you like the day or night? explain why.

@ I like both day and night. Day: i get to go out and hang out with my darlings. Night: i love star-gazing..

*14. do you treasure stuff that you own, or you have insatiable desires?

@ Let's put it this way. When i bought my MP3, within the first day, there were multiple scratch marks.

*15. if your computer just hanged up, with a long document that is not being saved; how would you react?

@ I tell u... I will cry lah.. then I will ask my bro to fix it for me..

*16. do you believe in miracles? or was it longed predestined?

@ i would like to belive that it is all predestined.

*17. do you often forget about the past or trying hard to do so?

@ I have short term memory, so i might forget sometimes.. but i do not force myself to forget them..

*18. in your mind, why are colours out here?

@ Again, I do not answer questions that make no sense..

*19. have you ever pity those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them?

@ I have.. and i will whenever i watch Opera. damn that women and her talkshow.. lol

*20.describe yourself in terms of your attitude.."

@ Well I have a ' Dont try to bitch with me' attitude when I'm serious.

*21. do you suddenly lose grasp of hope to survive as yet?

@ I do have my moments when I'm emotionally drained, but i pick myself up and carry on.

*22. give 3 advantages when you get to live.

@ I get to be loved and pampered by my loved ones. I get to shop. I get to experience the things that are awaiting me.

*23. what is your ambition in life?

@ I reaaallllly want to become a Food And Nutrition teacher. And to make my parents dreams into a reality.

*24. do you believe in horoscope?

@ I read them just for the kick of it..

*25. describe the music in your life.

@ What can i say.. I feel the need to dance whenever i hear music.

*26. which country would you like to go to when you can afford it?

@ I'd like to go to Rome.. And I have no idea why..lol

*27. what do you think blogging is about?

@ It's some sort of terapy, where we can trash out everything we want. It's like a online pair of ears. lol.. does that make sense? lol

*28. what kind of style are you trying to get hold off?

@ I am my own style, but I'm having the retro fever at the moment.. lol

*29. when you failed a test, how will you react?

@ I will be depressed.. like you wont go around saying "YAY I FAILED MY TEST!! WOOHOO' rite..

*30. pass this to 8 friends for them to get it done..

Aiya.. anyone who is bored and stuck at home just do this lah.. It kills time anyhoo...

2006-11-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

1 more paper to go, and that's it. Goodbye Jurongville Secondary School. If you're thinking that I'm going to complain about my paper, well, I'm not. Because what's done is done. No point thinking about things that cannot be un-done.

Let us all now reflect on our pass 4/5 years in this place we call our alma mater. We came into this place all terrified and sad that we left our closest friends in primary school. Some of us came into this school without any friends from primary school, some lucky ones saw faces they knew and sticked to them so that they wont be alone.

We were geeky then, some still are, after all these years, some transformed totally. But all of us have learn valuable lessons, both studies-wise and social-wise. We played really dumb bonding games which helped us make new friends. We didn't know then that those dumb games would have us create such wonderful and valuable friendships with people who would be our support system for the years to come.

We made fun of the elderly teachers who were our Class Mentors and the way they spoke. In sec 1, some of us still played 'Catching' during recess and stopped only when we found out that none of the others were playing anymore. In my case, we still play 'Catching', but that's only when no-one else was in school.

We went for swimming lessons in Sec 2. Although I did not join them I heard it was real fun with free bubble tea after practice by our Class Mentor. We had to do CME projects which was going to be graded in our Report Books.

In sec 3, we went for our Adventure camp. We had cute instructors. We played in mud. We got freaked out by all the ghost stories we heard the next day. We made everyone sign our camp tee when we came back to school.

Sec 4 came and went. We had to go to various Poly Open Houses and got freebies. We were preparing for our 'N' levels. We got lectured at because we were not doing what was expected of us. We slacked, we worked, we did our 'N' levels. We went for the very first Grad nite helb by our school. It was in out school hall, sadly. Got back our results. Some sad to see their friends who did not make it, and start to worry if they would get to go up to Sec 5. We did, and a whole new year began.

Sec 5. Two classes. Side by side. Both classes were very united. At least that was how I felt. We had our differences. But we did have our share of wonderful moments. We took part in our school's musical and found a new passion: Acting. Teacher's Day came. The sec 5's came together and put up a kick-ass dance for our teachers. We learnt alot about one another during all thoses practices. We got to see the real side of them. N5 was born. We rocked the stage! We did our prelims only to get back low marks. We when for our last Grad nite in Secondary School. This time it was a blast. Everyone all dolled up and well groomed. We went on to take our 'O's and now only 1 paper is left resticting us to stay at home to study one last time for another 3 months.

We do not know if we will be able to stay in contact with all our friends in Jurongville. But I say take all the good memories of your stay in Jurongville and leave all the bad ones behind and never look back. For you will have to go through all of this again once we move on to the next stage in our life.

And with this, I wish all of you the very best. Take a moment to reflect on your years n Jurongville. I know you will never forget all the experience you had. To all those who have known me, I realy hope we stay in touch. You have played a part in the memories which I will bring along with me.

Take care

PS: I sound very dramatic. I know. But hey I hope it brings a smile to your face.

2006-10-25T12:10:00.000+08:00

i know i have not updated in a loooooongg time... but trust me i will.. i have been editing my grad nite and deepavali pics one by one.. so its going to take some time before i even publish it. hehehee...

once the 'O's are over, i promise a long long long photo log okay.

now i feel guilty for not really mugging for the 1st week of the break so i'm going to really start now! take care everyone!

A belated selamat hari raya and deepavali wishes...

And a its a sexy seventeen for simi today!!!!! happy birthday simi suuthu!!

to all my darls who came to my house on divali: thank u! I love you guys! muackz!!!

And to all those who are taking their Os: GOOD LUCK! hang in there!

till 20 nov.. good bye for now.. tata my darlings...
you know you love me..
have a mug-filled week!!

2006-10-07T18:10:00.000+08:00

We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way.

Looking back, I've made countless mistakes in my life. Some careless, some stupid, some childish, some embarrassing.

But I learned from them. I dont think Sec school life would be the same if not for the mistakes that we do. And when we learn from them are know what to do the next time. There's only 5 more weeks to call myself a Secondary school kid and I'm not leaving this damn place without a bang baby!

Why cant we have a prank day for the graduating pupils.. you know, like in the states the graduating students plan this huge ass prank and they pull it off on the last week of school.. how cool if we could do the same in our sch huh? Just think of all the possibilities..

give comments on what prank you would like to pull on our last week of school yar..(not like its ever going to take place but yar.. just for fun..lol)

So to all you JVSians out there.. Come to the grad night in your cuttest and smartest outfits and lets bring the house down!

tata my darlings!
you know you love me

2006-10-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

Which part of "Sec 5 have already step down" does Mrs Krishnan not understand? We do not want to dance for the school anymore for now.. We have our bloody O's to worry about and all you can think of is putting up a good show so that you wont get a bad name?? What rubbish is this? And please stop with the "Oh.. It's your last year in JVS, I thought it would be great if you can dance and take it as a memory." like what? Hello we have like 5 years worth of memories with us and we don't want this show to be the memory for the reason we did badly for our O's. Already we cannot concentrate enough.. You want us to come up with song, choreograph for that song and dance it? all that in 2 weeks? have you gone mad?? I know we did it for you last year but thats different.. Last year our N levels ended and we were free.. but thats not the case this year...

so please stop pestering us.. And you bloody mama.. if you dont want to dance then say so.. but dont sa-boh me and tyra to dance.. i was soo angry at you and i still am.. dont sell us out just so you want to get a clean rep... you lied your stinking ass out of the situation and we are suppose to be stuck in your crap... get a life... I HATE YOU!!!

argh.... just when i thought every thing was easy peasy.. this thing comes up.. i'll just keep my mouth shut.. you can say whatever you want... I'm not dancing for you evr again......

i hope i wont have to update a depressing/angry entry again...

2006-09-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

why are the intro songs to Sun TV's dramas turning into a mini music video?? soo annoying.. not that i am a fan of their dramas.. 30 mins to a drama, 15 mins goes to the advertisments, 5 mins goes to the song intro,5 mins of the recap, crying parts and slow motion moves and onli the last 5 mins are the dialog.. and for this 5 mins, my mom wakes up from her naps religiously at 11 am to watch her fav drama... haiz....

the thought of O levels just freak me.. it feels like the year onli started and now we have passed all the wonderful times and it has all come down to this.. this point of our life... where the marks we get now will determine where we go and what we will do in life.. haiz.. quite sad actually... this marks determining our life... what if we dont do well and dont attain the cut out points required to go into a course we really like?? freaky i know... but that life in singapore.... so 15 point and below here i come!!!!

thats all i have to say for now....

and oh.. sorry if all my past post have been a tad depressing.. i was in a quirky zone.. lol..

2006-09-16T16:26:00.000+08:00

I'm a happy happy girl.. no more depressing entries from now on... my mind is cleared... thank you very much....

2006-09-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

Do you people not get english? Do you not know how to read? when i say do not msg me on msn if u have nothing important to say.. i really mean DO NOT MSG ME ON MSN IF U HAVE NOTHING IMPORTANT TO SAY.. or are you just too densed to understand?? for the love of god.. you do not want to add fuel to the fire with me today. You will not hear the last of it.. I'm in a pissy offy mood today. If u mess with me:U WILL DIE!!!!

AARRRGGGGGHHH!

Oh and can u friggin people STOP asking me what i'm going to study for the ss or maths or whatever exam is coming out the next day.. I will study whatever i want.. why do you want to know soo much? waht are you going to study onli whatever i told you i was going to study? no right.. then why the toot are you asking me all these stupid questions!! I TELL YOU, YOU BETTER STOP ASKING ME QUESTIONS THAT IS JUST A WASTE OF MY TIME!!!

And you bloody typical mama.. I dont bloody care what you do with your studies. Just dont mess with mine. You are very good at making ppl do things for you. you bloody piece of shit.. i have had it with the both of you.. I cannot be bothered what you do with your life.. i dont wanna know anything bout it anymore so STOP talking to me about it. i dont wanna hear your bloody voice anymore.. YOU BLOODY MAMA.. and do your own bloody work.. I got the same notes as you. I have the same teacher as you. So tell me, Why the hell am i able to do all mine own my onw but you cant even write a sentecne which is originally yours on your own??? tell me tell me.. I knwo you have just copied whatever i have done.. so dont be a mama and keep on deniying it..

EEEEeeee!!! I've had it with all these ppl!! just let me do my O's and let me out of here!!

so from now on I'm allergic to fakers and losers....
i'm itiching already....

skrew u toots...

2006-09-09T18:45:00.000+08:00

couple of things happened...

First of all: MY SISTER'S CONVOCATION!!

What can i say. She is funny, sweet, pretty, wild, lazy(hehe) and now we have prove that she is very smart... Bachelor of Business with Distinction..*dont play play ar*. I bet all those shallow no life toots out there are killing themselves right now coz they know they are no where as good as my sis. Bloody arsehole. If you people are soo free, go play with the traffic. Thanks.

Teachers day is over too.. *N5* we rocked!! hehe..

My house warming paryers is also done.. took lots of pics but have not uploaded them yet.. hehe..

ok so today is my brother's 21st birthday! woohoo..

but heres the thing.. my brother is always in a world of his own.. Like sometimes my sis and I, we wonder if he was picked up form some street or if he is even human.. haiz... You people know i can spend alot rite.. and my sis can spend even more.. well my brother.. it takes him a month or even two months to clear 50 bucks.. give me 1 hours and 50 bucks is gone man...

today is his birthday.. you'd expect him to be all happy and smiles.. Think again people, this is MY bro we are talking about here.. he wakes up all grumpy due to lake of caffine.. grunts her and there. brushes his teeth and comes out.. when we wish him and goes to him to give a kiss.. what does he do?? Covers his cheeks and grunts somemore.. haiz... so sad ar... I tell you his girlfriend in the future is going to suffer.. i pity the girl.. lol *just kidding lah.. he is a wonderful guy ok...*

ok i have to go.. bye bye my dralings...

you know u love me...

muacks!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATTAH!!!!!

2006-09-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

"Be strong, Be strong now. Dunnoe where she belong.."

It's at this precise moment that i need to be strong, but the truth is I'm not. I'm scared to think of what the outcome is going to be.. I hope it's not to late to wake up now.. Everyday i feel like crying.. but when I'm at home i dont have the privacy to be on my own and cry... when i take the opportunity to lock my self in my room to cry when i am supposedly changing, i hear a knok on my door and i can't cry my heart out.. I've been carrying alot of things in my heart i think i'm going to go mad if i dont let it out... and yes i'm crying now with my bro sleeping on the floor of my room.. (see what i mean.... no privacy)

but seriously.. i cannot take it or control it anymore.. Why do I always do it to myself.. I never say the things i wanna say cos i dont wanna hurt anyone else.. thus i keep hurting myself with my own thoughts...

Many of u are changing, for the worst. Dunnoe if u are aware of it.. It's not a pleasent thing to witness and i'm not liking it one bit... Whats up with your 'tude... pls change...

Yes, i do not know where i belong... even at home, i feel out of place... in school i feel like im not there with the rest even if i am..

whatever.. no one gives a shit bout what i think anyways..

suji

2006-08-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

I just realized that in JVS most of the 'friedships' you have are probably fake.. i have encountered many in my 5 years here.... And after my O levels i just wanna say bye bye to themfor good!! These are the type of people who are there, at that particular point of time, just to be there... They dont make u difference in your life.. just make it more difficult.. *shakes head*

First of all, who gave you the permission to read our stuff? Why are you soo K-po... omg.. keep your eyes and hands to yourself can.. You are not that great yourself... Who knows what you have said about me... So dont go around telling everyone how I dont respect friendship.. take a minute to reflect on what you did all these while.. You're not soo great either.. So dont go aroud cursing me.. You really suck you know that... I'm soo pissed off i thijnk i'm going to cry.. even though you are not worth a drop of my tear....

skrew you man... You be back crying before you even know what hit you.. I hate you and you know it.. so stop all the fake sweetness.. i dont want to be linked to you anymore...

Cant wait for my O's.....
after that its bye bye you bitch...

2006-08-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear sis!!

ok ok.. lets get down to business.. If YOU have something to say just come and say it to my face.. Have I not made it clear that i dont like people to talk behind my back.. Or are u too dumb to understand simple english? Me no liking U talking behind my backing....... u understanding now??? argh...

please have the bloody guts to come and talk to me face to face lah...

pissed off u know.. all the nice nice words all wanna come out... bleuk!!!!!!

eeeeeeyer... i very pissed... i feel like SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

It's now 10.14 pm...I'm tired, my body is aching, my bed is calling my name and yet I'm here... Why? You may ask.... Because my dear Eng Yiwen tagged me saying that i have to do this survey.. And i kinda like doing surveys so yeah.. here I am..lol
Here goes nothing...

Instructions:
1) do the following wifout complaining..
2) choose 5 ppl to do after u've complete urs..
3) leave a tag on the person's tagboard saying he/she has been tagged..
4) start the post wif "i've been tagged by..." and do the following.

-FAVOURITES
-colour:Anyone who knows me knows I go crazy over anything GREEN!! after that it's hot pink black brown and white.
food: Anything that is tuna. Be it canned tuna, tuna bun, tuna on bread or fried tuna!! yummy.. now craving for tuna quiche.. I'm making it on friday *It's mine.. ALL MINE*
song:Can't fight the moonlight(cayote ugly)
sports: badminton and netball.. i like shooting
day: Fridays.. coz that means i can sleep till the cows comes running home the next day!! woohoo..
season: In singapore we have summer all year round. but i like spring.. soo full of life and beauty
ice-cream: cookies and cream or rocky road

-CURRENT
-mood: half dead, tired but still alert... weird i know..
taste: this biscuit i used to buy in primary shc during recess.. four biscuits in a packet for 10cents.. my mom bought some from a shop..
clothes: my oh-so-comfy boxers and my sis Nee Ann Poly pe tee.. lol
desktop: some sony backdrop thingy lah.. like lazy to change onli..
annoyance: the fan.. its blowing my hair into my eyes..

-FIRSTS
-bez fren: jean in nursery
crush: probably some kids show host..lol
movie: i dunnoe.. the furthest i can remember was watching the spice girls movie with my sis and her friend
lie: i guess it would be when i lied that i did not pee in my dipers when i was a baby..lol
music: mommy's lullaby

-LASTS
-cigarettes: have'nt u heard smoking is bad for health.. *stares at SOMEONE who is sleep right now*
drink: plain water when i took my pills
ride: the 334 bus ride home
movie: watched the white chicks vcd again *you said it..But you were thinking it 'giggle giggle'*
CD: some cd's that me sis burned a long time ago lah

-HAVE YOU EVER??!
-dated one of ur best fren: nope.. if i did, i would have to be a lesbian..lol
been arrested: Nope.. I'm a goodie goodie
been on tv: yup.. as the audience.. they always like to zoom on my face.lol
kiss a stranger: lol.. nope.. they might just call the mental hospital...

-4 THINGS U DID TODAY
-went to school, leaned how to do tangent from a graph, phy practical, and collected money

-4 SOUNDS YOU CAN HEAR RITE NOW
-the fan, CSI on tele my bro is watching, sis talking on the phone and the keyboard typing away.

-5 PPL THAT I'VE CHOSEN
-shaun
denise
wani
nadia
pris

2006-08-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Tell me now.. What is up with girls and them acting cute? It's been going around for sometime but now it's getting outrageous..

I mean come on... If you are cute by nature, go ahead and be cute.. I'm not talking about you lot... I'm talking about girls who are not cute by all means and they know that they are not cute.. But STILL insist on acting like they are all cute and bubblegum pop.... ARGHH... Those are the kind i just cannot stand....

symptoms of girls who act cute:
1) Suddenly you see them trying out the new lingo
2) They laugh like their life depends on it (and the thing is none of the others dont find it funny)
3) They use their newly discovered high pitch bimbo voice all the time
4) They try to be all 'gaga' when there is a boy alert
5) When she goes ' like can u' ' like... pls like.. ermm..like' and she starts to twirl her hair
6) When she thinks all the guys are 'gaga' over her
7) When she tries to copy who her cute-by-nature friends talk and act

and the list goes on from there..

So please ladies... Have some dignity... Give yourself a reality check!!! If your not cute stop trying to be.. You are only making a fool of yourself, which you already are.. So that makes you a BIGGER FOOL!!

2006-07-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT... wahlao... everytime without fail our class sure will have a fight one.. haiz.. whatever the problem is... cant you two let it go... its our last year together.... must we leave with all that hate and anger.... cant we just all make up and leave JVS as one united group... So much better than having to remember JVS and think to yourself " oh i hate that person".....

ok i've said my part.. after this you all can do what you think is right.... whatever......

Today felt very spaced out... won a popular voucher for 10 bucks coz we (joy, seng huat, rinah and me) came in 2nd for the racial harmony race... lol... so after remedial, asrinah and i went to jp's popular and bought all the colour pens we could find... well not really lah.. i bought like five colour pens.. two lecture pads and envelopes..lol... excatly 10 buck on the dot.. woohoo.. I am gooood...lol..

ok gtg.... peace ya'll no war.......

tata
take care my darlings!!

2006-07-22T17:25:00.000+08:00

Just here to dust off the spider webs... hehe.. I know its been long..lol so stop rubbing it in..

musical is over.. it's the post musical effect... i cant get over it.. i'm going to miss every mon at 3.30.. i wont have anything to do at 3.30 on mondays anymore!!!!!!!!!! i want to play with my sowrd!! i want to joke around with G!! All the cast members!! I MISH YOU GUYS!!!!!!! can we hit the 'stop' button press 'rewind' and 'play' it all over again... thank god i did not cry.. i was thinking."suji make-up suji dont spoil it." lol

My family bought flowers for me.. Three blue roses.... Are they sweet or are they sweet... awwwww.... *big slossy kisses for all of them* lol.. i love u guys.. and do you know that this is the frisrt time they are actually seeing me perform for the school...

tooks lots of pics.. but the blooger is just being jealous coz it did not get any flowers.. lol.. a

after that we took a bus to city hall mrt... waited for dumbo mun how and then took the mrt...

The MRT ride was soooo nice.. lol.. reached je at 12.50ish... went to mac waited a while more for the guys to play pool... took a cab to the 7 11 near my house with xioa yiwen, ling ling and joy.. bought a tub cookies and cream ice cream for joy and myself... went to my house... both of us bath and felt clean and fresh.. went to my room so called 'blast' the speaker.. A tub of ice cream, 2 ice cream spoons, 1 air conditioned room and 2 girls.... talked and ate, talked and ate... till 3 am!!! Both of us slept like a baby till 2 this afternoon... freshen up... ate yummy prata and watched MTV... Both happy and tummy filled up... sent joy home in a cab and i'm here doing this..

now i'm going off...
tata my dralings... you know you love me...

2006-06-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

I am like sooooo sleepy... this day marks the end of the first week of school after the so called holidays... It passed very fast... like it was just monday and zoomed it is now friday... so fast ar.... lol

i am sleepy.. i have been having difficulty waking up every.. let me tell you why.. lavander filled air-con room, bouncy bed, thick ands oh-so-soft quilt, my wonderful pillows all combined is a recipe for a gooooooooood sleep.. lol..

and the homework is not helping either.. I have tons of homework each day.. like shit loads... haiz...

ok i'm sleepy..
tata my dralings...
you are all loved..

2006-06-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

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2006-06-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

blah blah blah blah....
sooooooooo....
how have u been?........
ok ok..
i'm just bored...
laa dee daa dee daa........
lol

ok ok...
i know it's abit lame..
but hey i can do whatever i wanna do..
u cant sue me..
well u can if i ever make a racist remark...
but i wont...
or maybe i will.......
hmm..
No la i wont..
lol..
this is crap..
but yet i know some of u will still keep on reading...
You stupid fools...

why dont u just give up....
come on give up..
stop reading..
i know u wanna..
come on..
stop...
stop lah.....
STOP READING..
lol...

it just goes on...
and on.....
and on.....
and on....
and on................
you still reading this huh.....
thats just dump...
ok i'll tell u something...
but first check to see no one is behind you..
or beside you...
or peeping at the screen...
go on... CHECK i say.........

ok good u are back...

so here's the thing:(u have to highlight it to read)
I JUST MADE YOU WASTE UR TIME YOU FOOL...
i told you to stop reading from the start... but noooooooooooo.. you just wouldnt listen to me... now u pay...muahahahahahha!!

2006-06-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

So choir is tough shit rite now.. no play play.. have to learn and teach the 7 or so songs to them.. All of the sentosa concert.. On the 17 june..can cry can.... and the sec one's like blur blur boh-chap one.. asked if they understand all say yes. then in the end when time to sing all blur..haiz...

Of all the songs we would be performing this one song is like stuck in my head:
Come what may..

i just love this song!!!

~Never knew I could feel like this
Like i've never senn the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sing
And telling me to give you everything~

ok thats about it...

OOoo daddy bought nasi lemak.. yummy!!! tata.. have a good evening ahead...

2006-05-29T15:37:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A SWING!!!!!!!!!!!!! As in like the a long wooden grand type of swing... As in like king type swing!!!!!!!!!! Wooohooo!!! so that was the surprise!!! lol.. i thought what.. lol..

I'm loving it!!! so next time i wont have to hunt down every playground to find a swing..lol i love swings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sounding like a bimbo*

I love it.. I love my house. I love my room. I love my sofa. I love my bed. I love my GREEN toilet. i love the divider. I love the up and coming bar area. I love my renovated home!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tamil 'O' Level paper is over as of today!! kinda happy with how i did for my paper..that's all i'm saying..dun wanna jinx it.. That's one load off my shoulder...hehe...

have i told u: I LOVE MY SWING!!! lol

oh my brother is going to play the trumpet for the arrival of the president during national day... but he will only get two tics... i know it's like tooo soon... but if anyone gets tics and have extra can u throw like throw two of it my way?? Thanks... lol

ok i have nothing more to say...

have i told u?
I LOVE MY SWING!!!!

2006-05-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

Today is a special day.. For today marks the end of Mid-Year.. Not really a 'yay' or 'woohoo' thing this time coz i know i did really badly for this set of papers.. the reason is that i just did not study hard enough and also that i studied the bloody wrong chapter.. well this will only maked me more alert for my perlims..

enough.. talk bout this heart pain only..

Have i told you all that I LOVE my new bed that's going to arrive next week? and also the new couch which colour I chose!!! hehehe

can't wait for the house to be done with.. give it 2 to 3 weeks!! sleepovers for the gals here we come!! my sis says she would bunk in with my bro if i have a sleep over at the same time i have to bunk in if she has a sleepover, which will be like all the time.. lol..*mummy take note of this* lol..

ok ok I'm not making sense... I really think i'm going to be sick.. my temp has been rising slowly.. throat in pain.. think it's ol'Mr.Tonsils saying hi to me again.. lol

ok gtg.. tata
and the cow jumps over the moon...

2006-05-12T17:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was just a waste of my time in school.. this was what i did: went to the Multi-purpose room and use the net during food and nutrition, read my storybook and then memorise some phy experiments during english lesson, went for recess, took down some formulas for phy during science lesson, got a worksheet to ' hand in next week' for maths and then listened to my bro's mp3 while i sorted out worksheets for Mrs. Philip during my two free period.

All in that order... Now tell me.. apart from the sci lesson, wasnt my time wasted in school? Yet they say we learn alot by going to school.. lol

talked and craped till 2 plus in the canteen(which was not mat/minah infested, shocker!!)

went home being teased all the way to the bus stop.. lol.. (u bitches, but i love you all the same lol) reached home and bummed all the way.. wacthing drama's after drama's on tele.. finally got to see Gilmore Girls again.. Woohoo!

Renovation Updates:

Toilets in the master room is sooo awesome!! glass screen for the shower area, but i love the kitchen toilet.. simply coz the tiles are all GREEN!! can life get any better? lol..

the rooms are being plaster-ed as we speak.. the wall look and feel oh-so smooth!! paints are already here.. red and orange for my room!! Woosh.. pwetty pwetty room lights are fixed and are so diva-istic!!

front gate i like!! looks grand..

Can't wait for the party!!! *mommy mommy can i have a sleep over* hehe a girl cna wish cant she...

ok thats about all i can say for now... i want to go bed seeing!!!!!!! IKEA, you'll have to wait for me....

take care
study i know you will not..lol lazy bums..
love ya..

the lion goes GRRRR..

2006-05-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

i see spider webs taking over my blog.. *shoo Mr. Spider*

so what it has been weeks? lots of things happened, wonderful things, not-so wonderful things and just plain bad things....

wonderful thing no.1 i dun have to worry my butt off for my tamil for now.. can concentrate on my other subjects.

wonderful thing no.2 i finally handed in my task analysis for my mid year..

not-so wonderful thing no.1 i did not get to finish editing my task analysis.. which will cost me to loose some marks...

not-so wonderful thing no.2 i cant study in my house, so the bloody table under my block (which is very disgusting and cat-dominated) has become my study table..

just plain bad thing no.1 i can't find chem and phy notebooks!!! like can cry can.. i know i'm not going to do well for my mid year...

just plain bad thing no.2 i feel left out.. not with my friends.. i dunnoe.. maybe its just me..

-------------------------------- change of topic-----------------------------------

where have all the smart people gone? YOU STUPID GIRL.... pantat ber lobang (dunnoe if i spelled it correctly)

let's get the facts right.. I dont like you... if you dont get my countless hints, then you are just dumb.. or blind.. or just plain dense.... Come on women, it's like OH MY GOD!! you are soo bloody annoying.. when I'm talking to someone.. I'm not asking you to give your bloody out-of-the-point opinion.. I'm not interested in which india mama looked at you or whatever.. it's a pity that only india mama's look at you.. and what's up with your skirt.. you think what? you are a cheerleader ar? PUH-LEASE!!! like get over yourself... the whole world does not resolve around you.. I dont trust what you say.. never had and never will.. you sickening piece of shit.... you suck the fun out of everything....

there..... now I feel much better...

ok.. it's raining men.. not really... it's just raining...

tralalalala....

2006-04-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

5 years... I've been in JVS for 5 years.. It seems like a long time, but it seems to pass so darn fast... take this year, it feels like it just began but within 5 months i would be sitting for my 'O' levels.. like woah!

5 years ago we were all new to the sec school environment.. on the first day, we looked around for anyone whom who knew... I know i did.. i looked around and saw two faces i knew... yeeling adn faizzah.. lol.. then through yeeling i got to know this wonderful girl afifah. on the first day i saw her in the parade square reading one of the Harry Potter books. and there i was thinking " oh god another harry potter book reader.. she's weird.." lol... now 5 years after that i still thinks she's weird and lame and funny and weird and silly and did i mention weird?? lol.. if it wasnt for yeeling i dont think i would have gotten a friend like afifah..

Thanks to JVS i've gotten to know many wonderful and beautiful souls: afifah, kahlidah, yeeling, ivy, asrinah, zarinna, joy, big yiwen, small yiwen, denise, sis mas, kartick, fiza, shabir, simi, khairi, spidy, wani, pris, ivan, shasha, kim, kah soon, hajjaz and they just keep on coming in... you are all simply the best.. i wish everyone all the luck happinees and success in their lives..

let's see where we all will be in another 5 years..
take care my darlings...
suji

2006-04-12T08:47:00.000+08:00

I dont know whats happening... i start to type lots of stuff then delete it.. guess i dun feel like sharing it for now? or maybe i can never type it here coz i knoow what i say will hurt their feelings..

I dunnoe if u know that u are kinda irritatting and it's kinda getting on my nerves..

not so angry now coz good songs playing by the Dj for the day Nini.. lol..

ok whatever...
the cat goes meow...

2006-03-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

yay! i can finally blog again.. i have internet again.. what? it's been likw two internet-less weeks... lol.. I'M BA-ACK!!! lol..

Super teens camp was an emotional roller coaster.. cried till the cows came running home.. lol.. (dunnoe where that came from) really have a new perspective in my life and my goals ans my belives.. it really helped me believe in myself.. lalalalalalala~

followin the super teens camp i had choir camp the next day.. so sleep deprived as i was, i woke up at 5 (even though i had to be there onli at 8) coz my dad said he would drop me off at school coz i had to carry lots of things to school ( the milo tin, condensed milk, all the crackers) so yar got ready and was out of the house at 6.10am.. then in the car i told my dad " acha.. actually rite i really very early u know.. i onli have to be there at 8. then my dad just laughed and said " too bad.. why you say you have to be there early??" lol.. the camp was great.. but it was scary too at night..lets just say it was 3am.. 8 girls were at the cannteen alone.. one of them saw a white cat that later was not there anymore and something happened.. ooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooo

ok got to go..
snake goes Sssssssss

2006-03-09T09:45:00.000+08:00

the com at home i dead.. *sneeze* hopefully i will be buying my laptop next week.. if not i'm dead... courseorks and projects and all.. dead meat.. *aahhh chooo*

in the bloody freezing com lab.. *sally has some visiting to my nose* how wonderful.. this is like the worst flu ever.. sorry to kartick who is sitting beside me.. hope he dont get my flu.. YAY to wani who brought vicks to school... thank the lords.. gret i think i'm sick...

feelin bleah....

laptop laptop when will you be mine???????

toom hav mee the parents.. 12.40 haiz.. then indian dance... sian.. dammint.. i'm sick i dont make sense.. cant use com at home... oh wait!! i already said that.. haiz..

let me be...
posers suck.. ppl who are posers but wont admit they are suck even more...

duck goes quack...

2006-03-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

why is the people often butt in on things that do not affect them or is connected to them in any way? seriously i really wanna know...

dont you just hate it when you are sms-ing someone and another person just stands beside you and peeps at what you are typing? On top of that that person is being soo bloody obvious at peeping at your hp but thinks no one knows.. LIKE HELL-O!!!!!

when you say you wanna go out with your friends and this person says "oh too bad i cant join you all, i have to go for a function" like what the hell.. No. 1: no one asked you where you were going, No.2: no one even invited you to join us and No.3: no one was even talking to you.. dont just assume that we want you to coem jsut coz we were talking about it.....

i think you know who u are...

toad goes: i'm soo dumb..
horse goes: i look like a man..

and pigs go oink..

2006-03-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

haha today suppose to go gym but was not in the gym mood today.. so told fifah to meet me at the je lib.. after soo long finally went to borrow some books.. hehe

today had P.E... soo irritatting.. played vollyball and the ball kept on rolling to the drain.. @#!$@#!$.. then I had to go and dig it up from the wet bloody thing.. like EEEWWWWW..... and the guys just stand there and wait.. never help.. @$#$!$# ^@*!^## .. lol so fed up already.. i told them i did not want to play anymore..

then went over to nad and started talking bout how clouds are made and why it rains and how the rainbow is made. and we told each other what our moms use to tell us when it rains for me it was " the god's are sad and they are crying.. thats why it's raining.." lol... also talked about our religion then moved on to hindi movies and all that.. hurhur....

science was fun today.. but during the pract i felt like puking and had headache....haiz...

indian dance was funny kept on laughing at them coz of the steps.. lol.. good luck and have fun guys muahaahhahah!!!! lol.. i know i'm mean..
lol

pigs go oink oink oink....

2006-02-28T20:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had that one friend who annoys the SHIT out of you... and all the while not knowing that he/she is that much of an irritant??

the cow goes moooooooo..

2006-02-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

am really really bored.. so all i have if this....

ytd cooked ikan bakar with tyra during f&n practical... we were the only ones who cooked that dish.. the rest had the wonderful task of cleaning the internals of the fish and steam it.. muahahah.. i think everyone was waiting to attack our ikan bakar.. but too bad it was onli ready after they all left.. MUAHAHA.... there were two of them so one ikan bakar we gave to the teachers the other one tyra and me went to one coner and eat.. soooooo yummy.. the sambal... yum yum yum yummy!!! lol.. *dont drool*

ytd was the most boringest (i know there's no such word) day ever.. the onli period were actually did some work was for maths.. that one oso is a bloody test.. sooooo hard..... confirm fail....

then today had pe, chem theory, maths, chem practical.. pe was really fun played netball with the rest... TanJJ was on our team.. kept on bumping into cruz.. he soo annoying always jump infront of me like what la... assman hit my side.. now still pain.. lol...

chem pract was fun.. even thought i was bit scared lah..lol

after school they had dance pract.. but i wont be dancing i'll be handling all the paper work and making sure they have their parctices.. basically i am the co-ordinator.. so today had the first meeting with the fine arts person.. she is ok lah.. but.. haha good luck to them is all that i can say..

then went home,changed and went to meet fifah in sch to go to the gym.. damn lol.. saw viknesh in the gym.. grown tall and all.. lol.. but abit blur lah he...

thats all lah.. life's boring...

suji

2006-02-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

You'll never feel my pain, You'll never see my tears, You'll never hear my cry.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry,
I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

this song i really like.. its soo real and wow... having mixed feeling bout things.. can we turn time around and go back to when we were babies? we had the easiest life ever.. no rules, no choices, no decisions to make, dont have to experience hurt and rejection.. no pressure to live up to people's expectations...

A carefree life.. thats what we all want, but its a life we can never have.....

the bitch
suji

2006-02-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

hmm lets see... what happened throughout the week i have nooooo idea.. its a bloody blur...

ok i am blanked out.. ermm ermm.... *rubs head*... errrrr.. err.... lol.. monday had musical practice.. got into main cast.. but i got the willy character.. i think its a boy.. but i can change my name.. so yay.. but we onli got throught the first page of the script.. so fifah and i were just sitting around laughing at everyone else and talking crap.. we were talking soo loud that mdm zainah had to hush us.. oops!

and the rest is a blur.. erm yar...

ok i know this entry is a bit of a retard but yar.. so what.. it's mine..

known to many as The Bitch.. lol.. they know what i'm talking bout..

suji....

2006-02-14T09:18:00.000+08:00

The day: Valentine's day
The time: 9.20
The place: School's MRL room for f&n

lalalala... so bored... can't eat tyra's chocolates.. puls it also looks freaky? oops...
shh... dun tell her....

can't people cry? sometimes i wonder why when we see someone crying we always say this: "why you crying? dont cry ar?" i mean like why? Is it like a standard thing? it just comes out of our mouth in auto mode..

ok i'mjust typing nonsence... coz i'm sitting beside one of the lamest person alive.. kartick...
ok whatever.. he's showing some pics gtg...

bitch to all bitches..
suji

2006-02-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps...

You won't admit you love me and so
How am i ever to know?
You always tell me perhaps perhaps perhaps.

A million times I've asked you and then
I ask you over again,
You only answer perhaps perhaps perhaps.

If you can't make your mind up
Then we'll never get it started
And I don't wanna wind up being parted,
Broken-hearted.
So if you really love me, say yes,
but if you don't dear, confess,
But please don't tell me perhaps perhaps perhaps.

...........................................

saturday was pissy offy.. i dont wanna elaborate....

ever had those times when all you want to do is jut break down and cry.. i'm going through that right this very moment.....

bitch to all bitches...
suji

2006-02-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hey ya'll... four long and wonderful(well to some anyways) days went by.. last friday was really fun... what we all did after school was the best....lol...

ytd was an alright day.. very mundane... *yawns* so yar.. after school went home, rest for awhile, watched a bit of MTV's sweet sixteen, then when to meet fifah at the bus stop and we headed to the jurong gym...this will be done every wed and fri.. coz that's the only two days we dont stay in school till 6!!! so yar...

then today's highlight was the mr ng was on leave!! woohoo!!!! no maths for two perionds!!!! yay to me!! lol.. today oso had dental.. the damn dentist shap my gums then cut throught my gums wahlau damn pain can... when i stip out the contents in my mouth can see bits of gum.. like EEWWWW..... but she never say anything bout braces for my lower set of teeth...

Then today after school when to ENAQ to eat choco prata with joy and tyra well they chose cheese prata lah.. but it was good...... went back ot school and headed for NP open house with the rest of the 5n1 and 5n2 ppl... got lots of goodies over there.. there were many mangamma(indian ah lian or minah) alerts over there.. like every where i turn i could see at least two.. oh and i got free cotton candy!! yums!!!! I simply LOVE cotten candy..(if only i could my the cotton candy machine.. dammit).. dalfarian was being a major diva bitch over there.. lol.. dont mean it in a bad way...

with this 'Mr. NG's expression' picture.. i bid you all farewell...

take care..
still a bitch to all bitches..
suji

2006-01-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

Point blank: I think i'm mood swing-y at the moment... so dont say anything to make me pissed..

NOTE: Just to help you out a bit. Here's a tip... GET A FREAKIN LIFE OF YOUR OWN!!!

*You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain* The song's stuck in my head.. everytime i feel like crying i listen to that song.... *because of you I am afraid*

May I add that today's school hour was dead boring.... but was high on chocolate so it wasnt sooo bad...

I've got this problem: I've got sooo freakin' much to talk about, but this is niether the time nor place to vent it all out.. so I've got to do what i dop best and not say anything at all.. life's an ass.... thats all... fullstop..

ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I hate this soo much.. can you people stop being sooo naive and wake up to reality. stop dreaming of things that you know will never happen and just grow up will you!!!! hate it when i hear people wishing for the impossible.. its like, I know and You know that it will never happen as long as we live.. so stop complaining and pestering me bout all this.. you people are sucking all the fun in my life out..STOP IT!!!!!!!!

life's an ass...
bitch to all bitches
suji

2006-01-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

Here i am after a damn good massage from my maid and a long due beauty sleep.. lol.. i slept til 1pm mind you.. lol Note: dont you dare tell me you never slept till 1 before coz i knoe you have.. so dont give that shocked look.. i'll smack your ass!!!

Forgot to mention about yesterday's P.E lesson.. lol yesterday was the FIRST time in 11 years of me schooling did I ever do high jump.. and it was fun but I made a fool of myslef lah.. coz I stopped to turn before i jump.. lol ....

after school (ytd), eng, teo, ahseng, den, yl, joy, rinah, jiali, eug and me went to jp to buy stuff for the classroom took sooo bloody long... then went back decorated my table which is full of neo's.. then went to je lib with yl, joy and rinah to meet fifah and ida...

first just flipped through some mags.. then joy and i went abit looney, coz we were abit bored so we made the glass flooring our runway and we did the different walks from ANTP.. lol we did bre's, nick's and kim's walks for fifa to cheer her up.. and it worked....

after that we played the number game, got my hand bitten alot of time.. very red i tell u.. then we played another mind game which was quite confusing at first but manage to get the hang of it.. but poor poor joy.. lol..

take care
a bitch to all bitches
suji

2006-01-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had a feeling of being brain dead.. like you know things are happening around you but you just cant think bout what you have to do? feeling really lethargic this week.. its like my whole body is moving in slow motion.. All the DRAMA around me is just making me even more depressed..

NOTE: Leave Me Alone.. i cant stand being around you anymore, you act like a complete bitch, like a pest that just won't die no matter how much you hit it with a book, like you think you are all that, you tell people things bout stuff that you have never done before just to make you seem all that, you are a POSER, you've got no originality, you lack a personal identity, you copy whatever i do, wear and say and i've just had enough...

well now that that's off my chest.. i think its time to say bye bye to my dear tonsils... soon soon.. you will be out of my life for good.. i wont have to suffer anymore pain from you.. i wont have to cry coz of you.. good bye my tonsils...

haha just a random pic.. taken when i went to night safari with my uncle's family.. the two rihno's are after me.. HELPPPPPP!!!!!!!! *screams like the heroins in the olden tamil movies* lol...

ok till here then
have a nice weekend.. it's a worthwhile break for all of us..
take care
suji

what a week...

2006-01-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

this week's gone by with a blur.... all i know is that i am really freaking tired!!!!!!!!!!

like my whole body is in pain and really stiff..
i really need a good full-body massage..*puppydog eyes*

Tons of homework, Bloody bloody remidial, damn choir practice and shitty tamil classes.. thats all i remember... but thats the price to pay.. it was my choice to go up to sec 5... and i'm happy to have done so...

Lately, I've been noticing many changes in many different people.. some for the good, some are just scary and some just plain annoying.. most of them more to the annoying and scary side...

just feel like telling them off but dont wanna hurt their feelings... so have been giving them obvious hints that i am just not borthered bout what that person is saying, even then the message just wont go through their brainless heads.. like just get a life and stop messing up mine... leave me alone *makes the cross fingers to get rid of u*

went to the exhibition at orchard just know with bodoh and blur, they were really enriching, the pictures i mean... so full of emotions, so detailed, complicated yet easy to understand, so full of life... just regretted not bringing my digi cam along.. dammit.. anyway went rounding after that for a while.. went to taka to find the ring.. really nice i tell you... and sooo cheap!!!!!!! might go on wed to buy it...

but now my feets are freaking pain.. anyone welcomed to massage them.. lol..

ever felt like something was so near you could feel it but yet that thing is oh so far... i do and it sucks....

take care
suji

2006-01-12T17:59:00.000+08:00

Today was just a dull dull day... Yawn...

voice is still the same... onli now i sound more gay then manly.. lol... real mean bitches.. that joy and yi wen.. arseholes... lol....

wait lah my turn will come ot jack you all back... made yummy egg sandwiches for fnn.. with maya bolied eggs and letuce.. that was my breakfast and recess.. lol...

*finger on chin* what came next... oh yar it was recess.. crap-ed so much i turned red.. ok thats soooooo lame i get it.. juat laugh to make me happy lah you all.. lol.. then we had 2 free periods... went to the lib.. had a freaking hard time teaching kartick maths.. these 2 weeks i have been teaching him maths.. pure torture lol.. maybe i should strat charging him.. hahaahah.. what do you thing....??

had maths which was ok but not to sure how to do my homework now.. (((((help))))))

went to the com lab for our life skills.. found out i have high self esteem and that i was romatic dreamy and sensitive... lol.... and that my stress level is steady... but i am not that balanced in life.. lol.. oops!!

anyhoo.. we all met ivan after school.. even though he looks abit diff he's still the same old historian i knew... i became a grandma today!!! fiza is my daughter, kartick is my son-in-law, sharmin(this sec 1 girl who is so us) is my grand- daughter and tyra is my sister which makes her fiza's aunty.. lol..... ok this is pretty lame but hey its fun... ok so let me be.....

tomm is the fisrt indian dance practice.. although i can't dance i'm just going to help kartick teach then the steps.. but hopefully i can dance for the musical.. maybe if not with the indian dance, but as the mordern dancers.. fifah they all going to audition with me.. yay!!!!!!!!!

ok got to go..

take care
suji

2006-01-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

so basically this whole week sucked.. and its only the middle of the week!! *2 more days sujitha. 2 more days to the weekend*

As u all know friday i took MC coz my tonsils inflamed.. so monday went to school normally.. every knew i was sick from the first look.. said i looked pale and stuff...then tuesday was like a hollie rite..so when i woke up on tues morn.. wanted to say good morning to my sis.. i cannot la.. lost my voice compeletly.... could not talk a whole sentence without missing soem words.. sis said i sounded like a seal... somemore soooo bloody painful....

*i go eat my dinner first* lol 8.26pm

ok i am back.. 8.37pm.. i take 11mins to eat.. thats quite fast.. little bit onli mah heehee...

ok so where was i.. oh ok soo bloody painful.. yar.. so with that pain i still went to IMM with my family... i was in pain but dun wanna tell anyone lah.. sis was being a health freak...

mom bought me the mintue maid lemonlade to 'make my throat better' then she bought this ginseng thingy for me.. they said it had cod oil in it or whatever but it just tasted like normal chestnut water...

had to find for my bro his army torchlight thingy.. so went to the army shop in westmall... felt like puking all the way home.. then when reach my house the carpark could not take the pain anymore just started crying in the middle of the pathway..lol...

hey painful ok... from my shoulders all the way up..

anyway today came to school and everyone was like laughing at me..
soooo mean ppl.... kept on doing the donkey voice lol.. type soo much just now.. then now no mood already..
hahaahah

take care..
suji

Don't you just hate the feeling of getting sick??

2006-01-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

Why did'nt i get rid of you when i had the chance? Why was i so scared to let you go? Now I'm the one who has to suffer the pain..... If you thought this was directed to any guy... you are WRONG!! its my damn tonsils.....(just wanted to scare you people for a while.. heehee..)

so anyway.. there goes one of my new year resolutions... doing the school year without any absent marks.. dammit... my tonsils are giving me problems again.. they enlarged again.. oh-so-painful i tell you... drowing down porridge after porridge today.. feeling yuck-ish.. i sound really stupid.. feeling stupid too.. (like huh? uh uh... duh.. wha?) hurhur....

missed the campfire.. damn.. miss my fnn lessons.... dammit!!!!!!!

ok whatever.. everyones very distant... or maybe it's just me..

take care

2005-12-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

Never update str8 away.. ma bad.. Am feeling really sleepy this few days.. have been waking up at 7am for 3 whole days... thanks to the bloody choir practice....

*clears throat* I PASSED MY 'N' LEVELS!!! i got 8 points.. not what i expected but at least i got through.... was crying way before i went up to the hall.. thanks to my mom.. once i heard her voice i broke down.. i know i could not dissapoint her anymore.. had to prove that i too can be like my sis and bro.. even though i need more time..

to my bitch (shabir): dont you dare not talk to us cos you wont be in sec 5.. you are still taking the same thing as us only in private.. we will always be together no matter what.. remember you promised me ok va? the SAPPIFIED will always stick together... dont you dare fade away from us.. coz you are never going to fade from our hearts...

to the historian (ivan): i still cannot get over the fact that i wont see you behind me in class next year... you were the only one who got my sarcasim in class.. i will miss your speeches on politics and the goverment even though it gets boring after awhile.... i can see you as the next Minister of Education in the future... this is not a joke....

to fishball (simi): you might be leaving us for aussie.. but dont you dare come back and talk to us in that bloody slang.. we will personally come to your house and kick your ass... hopefully i dont see you with rainbow coloured hair when you eventually come back.. and when you do come back.. come back bearing many many gifts for us ok? hehehe *blush* you know i love you.... and i know you love me too lol.. going to bring a tissue box for us on friday ok?

to the rest: i love you.. please keep in contact.. coz i never want to loose such a wonderful bunch of goons!! love you guys.. leave your email add on the taggie k...

much love
suji..
take care..

2005-12-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Ok it's now 11.45pm.. 14hrs and 15 mins to getting my results... Can cry can?!?!?...

*move your body girl* Oops..listening to the radio.... not enough that i have to go and collect my results tomm.. i need to go to the freaking choir practice!! Oh GOD!! Must i really..... but what to do? could not say no to afifah.. Dammit...

it's now 11.48pm!!! (ok this is dumb i know..)

can one of you bring a tissue box to school tomm? on top of all this fiza wants to come with us? like more pressure.... and my siblings were like " oh hor... tomm your results...oh hor!!"

WHAT THE HELL RIGHT!!!

shit! Shit! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

dammit... i am scared!!! like freakingly freaked out scared!! you don't understand....

aaaRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

must it be tomm.. i dont want any of this to change.. i dont want what i have now to ever change... can someone please play the repeat button.... damn...

11.53pm!!!!!

to Mr.Nightmare Man... please dont disturb me tonight ok? i don't want to see myself crying with a paper in my hand.. or i dont want to see me holding a paper slip with the number 13 on it!!!! NO MORE i tell you.. NO MORE..... i cannot handle it!!!!!!!!!!!

good luck ya'll..

take care..
see ya'll tomm i guess..
suji

merry christmas.. happy holidays!!

2005-12-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

Ok.. so i know i am a lousy blogger... have not been blogging for quite a while.. but I'm here now so be happy!

ok let's see.... what happened so far....

1) bro went to NS already. he is now Big, Black and Bald..lol we have the 3 R's now we have the 3 B's! but i really miss him though.. he is the one i can be really lame with.. and he is equally lame in return. Miss watching the simpsons and Nanny with him. which is like our daily thing to do! anyhoo he is coming back tomorrow after 2 weeks!! so yay!!!

2) went to batam after sending bro off. went to this resort called KTM. So-so only lah.. it was like a cabin but with like two bedrooms.. so i had a whole room to myself.. but it was quite creepy lah.. so i had to keep the tele and light on.

The frist day we reached there around 5 in the evening.. so we just unpacked our clothes and just rested.. i was in my own room reading my book.. then we were called down to hjave our dinner.. all this was paid by my dad's friend! so we had a very yummy dinner but most of it was seafood which i cannot eat.. so the uncle was soo sweet ordered for my chicken!! lol... then at night.. when i was going to sleep.. out of no-where this bigass wind came.. soo strong i tell you.. it was because the tide was rising.. oh did i tell you i was just besid ethe sea? lol... so nice the view..

Second day.. we had breakfast then we had the tour... bought some yummy crackers, some funny looking fruits, we went to this CK boutique and i bought a polo tee.. then we went to this super huige plaza.. but i onli bought a pair of sandles.. was not really in a shopping mood.. after that we had another seafood dinner in the resort.. and we went for a walk and saw lots of fishermen fishing.. it was fun!

the last day... had breakie as normal... then sat down at the beach chairs and just talked bout stuff... in the afternoon got all packed up.. then we went to this bah ku teh shop.. even though i dont really like to eat bah ku teh.. it was kinda nice.. after that went back to the resort, took our things and headed for the ferry terminal...

3) sis came back from aussie bearing lots og stuff!! Chocolates, Candies, Sweets, Caps,Bags,Clothes!! and shoes!!!!

4) my uncle for Malaysia came to visit with his family.... my two cousins are so adorable!! so chubby!! brought them around.. went to orchard, jp lib, went for many walks, even went to night safari ytd!! took loads of pics... this is the first time i have taken this many taxi's in like 1 week!!!lol... and i gained my love for Tom & Jerry once again! Played soo many games with them even though i felt abit dumb... but it's all good....

5) went to orchard point to see the anugera fanalist!! FAUZY!!!!!!!!!!! he is just so cute!! AAAAAaaaaaaaa!!!

ok that bout it.....

what i am looking forward to:

1) 16 of dec!!(which is like tomm) Bro coming home

2) 25 of dec!! Joy's christmas party!! woohoo!!!

3) 30 of dec!! Choir's Eng of Year gathering!

what i am not looking for:

1) 19 of dec!! doom date!! N'level result's day!!! nooooo

2) 18 of dec!! bro leaving to go back to NS....

3) 23 of dec!! have to send simi off to aussie... going to the airport with a box of tissuse!! going to miss that sappi jeet kaur sooooo much!!!!!

hey christmas is coming....lol..

few things to make me happy with:

1) Motorola razr in pink!! so cute! i want!! *puppy dog eyes*

2) Sony cyber-shot DSC-T5 in vibrant Red! $699!! lol... a girl can dream can't she!

3) Adidas bigass bowling bag in white and green!!

4) If no adidas never mind.. any bigass bowling bag in white and green will do.hahaha

5) This nail art combo i saw in IMM just now. It comes with a sample plate, one scraper, one stamp and two colours for only $19!! its a steal!!!!! *looks at you all with chinese anime eyes*

ok ok... wow this is quite long ar.. compensate from all the lost blogging time!! lol

have fun you guys!! see you real soon!! have to go out for lunch.. soeul garden?? lol.. tell me ok?!?

take care!!

yada yada yada.....

2005-11-27T21:27:00.001+08:00

weeks passed by.... the sister has gone to aussie... AND I HAVE THE BED ALL TO MYSELF!!! lol... i dont get to hear her sing the freaking DON CHA song for two whole weeks.... lol....

have been going out practically everyday... long MRT rides to orchard and bugis.. the confessions made on the ride to the place... all the gossip... pure bliss.... then going to the place for shopping shopping and more shopping... heavenly!!

spending lots of time with fifah and idah... super fun babes.. cant wait for the bake fest tomm..

the show koffee with karen is pretty funny.. psst... this is only if you have star world.. its every sunday at 9pm...

oh! oh! oh! i turned 16 on saturday!!!! lol...... so Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!! hahaah (that was just soo lame)

ok ok.. this is all just random...
ps: thanks to all my darlings who wished me!!! you all made my day!!! i love you all to bits! and i miss you all!!!!!

take care.. have fun while you can people!!!! coz the results are coming out soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

enjoy!!

random thought's...

2005-11-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

Just some random stuff.....

it's weird but i kinda miss school.. not the school itself but the people there...

i miss Afifah.
i miss Asrinah.
i miss Tyra.
i miss Fiza.
i miss Simi.
i miss Cruz.
i miss Burr.
i miss Idah.
i miss Zarinna.
i miss Spidy.
i miss Sha sha.
i miss Yi wen.
i miss Pris.
i miss Ivy.
i miss Khairi.
i miss Shul.
i miss Mr asta.
i miss Mrs philip.
i miss Mrs krishnan.
i miss Mrs alfred.
i miss Miss chua.
i miss Mdm suhaili.
i miss Mdm nuraidah.
i miss my table by the wall..lol
i miss the mac-like table outside the canteen where the sappi's used to sit everyday during recess.
i miss the place where we use to wait for fiza to come down from class.
i miss the music room where choir practice was held.
i miss the dance room where the indian dancers used to play around and practice.
i miss everyone and everything bout school..lol..

ok i am going nuts here...

sis leaving for aussie on the 17th Nov and onli coming back on the 3rd of Dec.. bro leaving for NS on the 2nd dec.... all leaving... it's going to be dull at home... even though i don't really tell this much.. i sure will miss my bro when he leaves.........

take care...

2005-11-02T17:36:00.000+08:00

Vanakam! so yesterday was Deepavali.. and i tell you it was the worst most boring one ever! And I mean EVER!! like less than 10 people came... lol coz most of them will be coming on the 12 (open house..)

the only good thing was i could finally get to see Chandramuki (this tamil movie the burr,cruz and tyra always teased me for coz i have not watched it) till yesterday... lol.. all in all it was an intresting movie.. but abit too much fake stuff..like what was up with the knief spinning round and round in thon air on its own.. (this was the last part..) the ending was also quite dump... but jo's acting was superb!

did not take any pictures yesterday.. but will do on the 12 so stay tuned....

but i did promise that i would put up pics of the grad nite so here....

Our table.. but got one extra: hakim...lol..

me and my trying hard to act cool/bitching partner/mohamad sappi/cheena sappi:shabir..

the gang with a missing link kartick..
Standing: shabir, frankie, spidy and ivan
Sitting: tyra and yours truly..

ok so we took pics at the badminton court.. buuut.. that was not enough... we went to macs and took more!!!! muahahaha shabir, kartick and me took turns kissing ronald macdonal.. *kiss kiss*

me and the 'hot' spidy.. the quite guy who sat behind me throughout the year.. the maths whiz... the guy whom jokes in his own way...

ok with this i wish all hindus a HAPPY DEEPAVALI and all the muslims a SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
take care...

i'm lovin' it!!

2005-10-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

We had our graduation nite on the 21st... it was ok lah.. but most of us were just busy talking and taking pics with everyone else... my sis was wonderful to me that day.. she picked out my outfit.. did my hair, my make up.. lol... I LOVE YOU!!!! lol... ok ok.. so meet tyra and frankie at my bus stop.. we went to our school stop to meet the rest of them.. Went there to find out that most of the guys at our table was also wearing black... great.. just great...

there was mr.ong's oh-so-boring speech.. some lame game.. dinner which looked like canteen food.. but it was ok.. songs by the mentors and another song my three malay guys.. they displayed all our class pics.. then they had another game.. and then finally miss and mr JVS.. it was liyana and her bf..

After everything ended.. there was picture taking frenzy... took tons of pics.. but i cannot figure out how to load it up here.. i keep on trying but cannot make it lah.. then shabir, kartick, ivan, spidy, frankie, me and tyra.. went to the canel area to take more pics.. i think we filled two card reader.. bothe mine and shabir.. went to macs and took more pics.. then realised it was 11 already.. we all rushed home.. haiz..

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can we all have a get together?? tell me ok.. we can plan.....

*i will try to upload all the pics soon ok....

take care...

weird dreams..

2005-10-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

Lately i have been having really weird and scary dreams....

one was: I was in my school uniform. Going to take my 'N' level results. All my friends took their result slip already and they all made it to sec 5. So i was going happily toward my form teacher and took my result slip from him. I opened it and there was the number of points in big bold letterings. I got a freakin 13 points for my 'N' level. and i just dropped on the floor and cried. And then i will wake up and find myself crying... scary i know...

many others are my falling into a long dark pit or someone trying to kill me.... veryy freaky...

________________________________

Ok all that aside...........

grad nite is four days away and i am really excited!!!!!!!!!! joy and i were talking on the way home from JP just now.. lol and we made each other soo ecited bout it that we cant wait for friday to come....

but i am soo not looking forward to thur.. the day of the concert.. which by the way we are so not ready for.. well think pink and fur for costumes... that about sums it up for my feeling of this dance...

take care

raaraa + andangkaka!!

2005-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

hey people.. it's been ages yeah?

so anyway hollies are here..well it has been here since monday but i only got my com fixed ytd so yeah.. deal with it..

went to geylang seri with fifah they all.. GOD! it has been ages since i went out with them.. it was soooo fun! was talking to fifah all the way in the mrt.. about everything and anything adn idah was abit jealous la..lol sorry lah..

went to the bazaar to look for clothes for the 'prom' (its not really a prom because its like in my freaking school hall) and also for deepavali.. Saw this really nice white sari material baju kebahya(sp?) soo nice!! i wanted to buy it for deepavali but i did not have enough money on me so yar... but isnt it weird to wear that on deepavali?

i wanted to wear something green for deepavali but my sis STOLE MY IDEA!!! humpt....

so anyway i'm thinking of curling my hair.. well mom says i could so i am going to.. only i have to confirm with her again. shasha says she will curl her hair with me and since her aunt has a saloon.. its much cheaper!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohooo...... hopefully i can get it done before 'prom'?

today went to school for dane practice.. fiza saw me and ran to me.. it was like a scene from a tamil movie lah.. we ran to each other and hug each other.. really miss you babe!!! lol.. saw simi the same thing happened... dance was ok.. but the sad thing was there were 4 chinese girl dancers and only 2 indian girl dancers...its called INDIAN DANCE for a reason people!! how sad right....

but the dance was nice... really looking forward to perform.. like after soo long i can finally get up on stage and dance again!! lol but we onli have 3 more days to practice and we are still at the star of the song.. and we dont know wad we are wearing..lol typical!!!

i am starting to be the fashion police of the group.. i have been picking out outfits for my friends to wear.. and on monday going to help joy pick out a outfit for 'prom' and the best part is i dont have a cule what i am going to wear.... lol

have two birthday people this month... my cash is burning.... ahahah.... but its ok.. it for my darlings anyway.. so i wont mind..well not that much....

few this was long.. it might be all boring for you but HEY.. it MY blog!!

take care..

Hello there stranger...

2005-09-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

It's been quite awhile has'nt it? (need i ask)...

anyway this entry will go back ot aug...lol had my sis birthday party.. was super happening.. with the cake to the saboh to the dance by saint 101 to the dance floor..... wooot!! it soo rocked!! lol.. had a blast with my sis and her friends.. well.. that was in aug....

lets come to sep:
had my perlims which are now over.. it was ok overall... my sis's hp got stolen by some retard at bugis..

so thanks ot her i dont have a handphone to use now.. coz i had to give mine to her for her usage.... woohoo to that yeah.. NOT...

but now without a hp i feel really good.. dun have to worry bout wad to reply to people... coz i am not the type who talks alot.. well unless i feel like it..

i dun have to call anyone back if they ask me to coz i can juat say.." i dont have a phone could you call me instead." and knowing the lazy pandi's who are also known as my friends.. they own.. leaving me in peace.... bahaahahahaha....

for my bro's birthday.. he soo cleaverly ordered 2 canadian pizza's and got four in total.. it was a pizza-licious lunch and dinner that day... LOL... and we still have not bought him his gift yet.. muahahah... shhhh....

there is 12 more days to 'N' levels.. and truthfully i am nto feeling anything.. i rather keep it cool than be all kiasu and then panic....

i dont understand why when i am all calm and relaxed, that my family thinks i'm not studying.. it does'nt mean that if you be all panic-ky and all that means that you are studying.. it just mean that you are thinking too much bout wad is going to comr out for the paper rather than studying..

its when you are calm, that you can study.. now when you are being kiasu.. so stop asking me" you not studying ar.. you look soo calm not scared 'N' levels coming is it?" i know its the 'N' levels coz i am the one taking it.. and no i dun ant to feel scared for my paper.. no point being scared..

gosh its been soo long since i blogged.. and i'm lovin' it...

p/s: dont you just hate it when you find out people are trying to copy your style, how you act, how you talk, how you dress and what not....
notice some people copying other people words and ideas on the blog..and i'm not liking it one bit... get your own life.. stop following others can.. sheesh.....

2005-08-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

Wokay.. my com is being really S...L...O....W....

the pain will be arriving on friday.. (pain being the prelims lah) soo... i wont be updating or using my com.. even if i do.. it will be either in school or for a few minutes.. so bare with me.. (val and pris dun ask me to update ok..coz i cant.. lol)

also will not reply to ur sms-es so help me by CALLING my hp instead ok? sorry lah.. rules by the elders...*looks pitifully at mom* lol... no lah// but i think its also good for me...

so yar.. thats about it.. weekend was norm.. boring.. not really excited bout tues, coz i have do a presentation on National Security.. like wadava.. so lame rite.. might as well get done with it.. ok lah all this is just crap..

take care

2005-08-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!!

Today is like sooo super boring.. i think my friends all went to the beach..but here i am infront of the com.. listening to some songs.. and playing some freaking game in popcap.. hmm.. no life loser...LOL!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna watch the russle peters comedy time again... my bro says he is coming down to singapore for a gig!! i am soooo going!! his jokes are soo funny i pee-ed in my pants laughing.. well not really lah.... i did not ok!!!!

tata..
lol
take care...

2005-08-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

Good Morning! Would you like to buy our nasi briyana?? Only $1.50 leh!!!! Buy ar!! Buy ar!!

Lol.. if you were wondering.. this was what we ( shabir, kartick, fiza, tyra and me) were saying the whole of ytd.. ok ok..i see the blank looks.. let me start from the starting..

Yesterday, we had our Food and Funfair.. National day celebration.. Last year each class had to be in-charge of a food or game stall.. this year it was each CCA to be in-charge of a food or game stall..

and since i was no more in Choir but still in indian dance, Mrs K, wanted the indian dance to have a food stall.. so she cooked the nasi briyani, chicken curry and all that stuff that goes with it.. all we had to do was decorate the stall and sell them..

but first we had to carry the mega huge pots of hot! curry and rice... so we made fiza stand near the car for security..lol then first we took all the achar, spoons and forks, and the small pot of rice to the canteen.. and Mrs K was soo smart.. instead of parking where all the teachers park.. at the front.. she had to go and park the car at the back of the school.. like soo DUH... so we had to make this big round to reach the canteen...

then kartick, tyra and me went on to carry the mega huge pot of rice. it was freakin hot and i kept burning myself..coz i kept on touching the hot metal part.. lol.. and hurt my index finger as well.. lol....

after all that.. we started to pack the briyani into the packet.. i was the rice section..lol soo fun.. by the first 20 mins.. the small pot of rice finished.. and then the mega big pot.. Mrs K had to go and make another pot of rice.. lol.. our stall did great.. all the good songs were playing.. and we all just started dancing infront of our stall...lol.. ytd was the best!!

Oh.. Oh..Oh.. ytd was shabir's 16 birthday.... You should be glad we did not have a birthday bash for you or saboh-ed u ok.. lol.... but don't know what happened to you after school lah... anyhoo happy belated birthday burr...

Happy Burrday to you
Happy Burrday to you
Happy Burrrrrday to Birdy!!!!
Happy Burrrrday to YOOUUUU!!!

ps. sorry i can't come for your birthday party today da... real sorry... have fun and make sure u pass ur 'N' levels ok.. all the best..

gtg
take care
love ya..

2005-08-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun.. real fun..

went to je lib.. I was the teacher for the day....lol went to teach fifah and asrinah english.. soo funny.. they kept saying i was talking like i was teaching the whole lib..sorry lah my voice loud what..

was telling fifah that my back all pain and stuff.. and soo sweet she gave me a massage..siok! i tell u.. felt soo good..
lol

any hoo.. today went to school with tyra, asrinah, shabir and izuan to finish up my food and nutrition course work.. And i now can proudly say i have finished everything!! and i don't have to look at it anymore!!! it is like a big burden is off my chest.. soo relived.. all thanks to shabir who helped me do my recipe analysis and asrinah who helped me out when i eventually found out that my earlier done research was all carp...lol.. MUACKZZ to the two of you man... LOVE YA..

mon is national day eve and is also shabir 16 birthday.. (u wait lah burr..oonaku irruku...) hoped that came out rite..lol main motive for that day is for me tyra fiza simi shabir and kartick to get wet and dirty from all the saboh-ing..lol

Today is my dear kahlidah's birthday !!! lets all sing her a song...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAHLIDAH
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!

wokay.... thats bout it i guess...wanna go watch the final episode of LOST on AXN.... BYE!!!
take care..
(p.s: i am addicted to the song Insatiable by darren hayes.. all thanks to tyra..lol)

2005-07-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

*sobs sobs*.. just found out that my handphone can't give out any ringtones..coz it fell down two time in a row on thurs... sigh... nvm.. will try to go to the hp repair shop on mon which is near my school.. see if they can do anything about it... But it makes no diff coz my hp is always on silent..so now you people know why i always dont pick up my hp..muahaahha...

ok so like wadava lah.... had tamil perlim oral on thur ok lah.. i passed... but i can like do sooo much better... trying to focus on my three top subjects at the moment.. eng, tamil and F&N.. i know its not good to do that but i have/need and want to go to sec 5... but i am also trying my best in my other subjects too lah.. haiz...*cross fingers*

pris i am sorry... how to have a whole entry bout u.. u tell me.. ok pris is my good friend..sat with me in sec2.. she was in the same class as me is sec 1, 2 and now sec 4.. she can be really lame... and i mean really... thus, we get along pretty well lol...... Happy anot pris...one whole paragraph on you... bah...

now then i realize that whenever i am with my group of indian friends.. i tend to slack.. and my grades goes down.. so i am trying to not be with them that much...sorry guys.. still love you lot though... i will still be there for you all..

wokay... nothing to type anymore....
37 more days to 'N' level
12 more days to prelims...
this sucks...

2005-07-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

i am here to make a quick update.. just to please yi wen and prix... Are you all happy now....

have been really busy with my food and nutrition course work and all.. and i have been really sleepy and zoned out for a few days.. thats why i have not been updating..

i just found out today that all the research i have been doing so far..(which is ALOT).. is all just crap... i have been writing bullshit for it.. and i have to do it all over again from the start.. oh oh.. and the best part is... the dateline is like THIS FREAKING FRIDAY... i so do not need to tell you how i feel right now..

looks like i wont be getting enough sleep..well if i can be awake that is... tamil oral sucked..coz it ended like soo fast... its like they were chasing us away or sumthing... having the bloody flu again... dammit..

life sucks for my at the moment... the stress is finally hitting home.. i dun think i will be updating for awhile....

maybe i will put up an entry that i have be longing to put up next time..

till then.
love yall..but not the stress.....
stress..i hate u...

2005-07-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

ok so on monday we had our 'N' level food and nutrition cook out.... i was sooo stressed out the day before that i could not even eat or sleep.. to make things worst my 'wisdom' tooth was growing and it was oh- so painful i onli managed to sleep at 5 in the morning...lol.. all things were shitty in the beginning..coz the teachers did not care one bit that most of our ingredients were not there.. they were al soo boh chap.... anyhoo manage to finish my cookout by the end of the day and here is how it turned out.... the chapattis were toooo hard... lol

my cookout

came to school quite early and was deleting some of the pics then val came to class and started taking pics of all of us.. this smile was done in pain....

it's was all yi wen's doing..

ok... so as you would have seen in the first pic there were jasmine flower around the place.. well i brought back all of them coz i did not want to waste it.. so.. my sis saw the jasmine flowers and got all excited.. my bro too.. and all of a sudden i became a scapegoat for my sis to practice makeup on.. and my bro was all like "oooo u should make her wear the sari malyalam style..tie the hair in a bun to the side... wrap the bun with jasmine flowers.." and i was too weak to do anything coz of the aching pain in my tooth.. so here i was standing at a coner to pose for pictures...

light up your life...

this was all done in pain... the smile is all fake!!!! but i like this pic below.... wad do you think?

oomana ponnu

they even made me go outside to pose with the plant.. i was soo worride that the neighbour would get scared....lol

black and white

i also like this pic above....

ok thats about it...ma tooth is still pain but i love the panadol coz it helps with the pain...lol!!!
anyone have panadol feel free to give it to me.. i am running out of it..lol

love ya
take care...

new layout..

2005-07-15T16:01:00.000+08:00

Hey there!!!

First of all i wanna thank my darling pris for making a new layout for me.. she had to be sooooo calm with me.. trying hard to explain all the things out for me...even thought i still don't get it..muahahahaah.... love ya babe!!!!

how do u like my new layout?? hahaha... ok soo.. today went to school did the usual... went to com lab for f&n only to stay there listening to tamil songs haha..shh.. even mrs philip(my bubbly f&n teacher) was listening to it.. had geo and maths blah blah blah... after recess was english..so much fun well for the four of us lah(val, pris,rinah and me).. Last two periods were free for me.. so me and cruz went to the f&n room to use the teacher's coms.. was partly doing my project, partly chatting with burr on the net coz that ass did not come to sch and partly listening to the remix that cruz dl..

after school came home right away.. thought i would be going to the lib with fifi they all but they are prob having their 'O' level LC riiiiight bout now.. so if they plan to go they will call me..

and now i am stuck at home waiting for my uncle and his friend to come home so that i can open the door for him..sheesh....

on the bright side...... I LOVE MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I LOVE PRIS FOR DOING IT FOR ME!!!!
muackzzzz
k til here...
take care..
oh yar p/s: my eyes are much better now.. (for those who care lah)

please go away before friday....

2005-07-13T09:33:00.000+08:00

Its now 9.34 on a wednesday and i am at home.. for wad? coz i have these huge swollen thingy below my eyes... it looks like eyebags only way bigger and oh-so painful..

went to the docs yesterday and they gave me one days' MC today i woke up feelin like crap but decided to go to school.. when i was about to pack my bag i could not take it anymore.. so called my mom to tell i'm going to school today..

i think i look like an alien (well if i was green in colour lah..) but you know wad i mean...don't you?

lol.... anyhoo.. my eyes are still in pain.. woke up, tidy up the table, put all the cups in the sink, did all the beds and went to the market to take the chicken and veggies from my maid.. and now i am here trying to do my course work while listening to some arabic song..(which can be quite peachful even if u don't know a thing they are singing about)...

k lah this entry is just for me to complain bout my eyes.. so to all the poor souls out there who happen to read this i am soory for wasting ur time..lol..muahahahahaah!!!

love ya...
oh oh its now 9 43...lol
i am sooo loopy rite now....bah...

2005-06-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

Third day of school already... How has it been u ask? Hectic i tell U!!!! first day already the bloody maths teacher gave us paper after paper of maths questions to do... like hello! First day.. slow down..lol

been really tired this whole week... still have to do my FnN course work.. my dumb CME project.. arrrggghhhh!!!

i really have nothing to write.. will blog more when i feel like it...

p.s new layout coming up.......

love ya..
muacks..

newlyweds..

2005-06-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to kartick's sis wed at errmm some CC near Lot1..lol sorry cruz forgot the place...

my mom wore her sari and i wore this pink panjabi suit with matching pink set which i thought was going to be really over already... but BOYYYY....was i wrong.. i actually think were were under-dressed....all of them were like wearing thick slik sari and wearing the whole GMT shop(a gold shop) on their neck..

reached the CC at like 7 40.. the place was cute got red carpet all.. then have the guest book.. the table was PINK! with rose petals and all... and they were still preparing things on the stage.... lol

everywhere i looked all i saw were (as tyra would say).. alot of errr ppl...all with the half rebonded and have natural hair...AAAaaaAAAAAARRRRR.....

most of the adults there were like friends of my mom's and dad's... the wedding ended soo freaking fast.. right after they tied the tali..ZOOM... all of them ran for the food!! i was like they havent even finish doing the rituals... and they are already lining up to eat....hahahaha....

after that mom went up to give the money...and we left...so boring... but the dj was playin all the nice songs.... went to pick up my bro and he drove all the way home...

thats all la.....
congrates to the newlyweds
love ya..
muackzz

I like to Move It Move It!!

2005-05-31T14:24:00.000+08:00

I like to Move it Move it.. I like to Move it Move it... We like to? Move It!!!! Physically fit! Physically fit! Physically Physically Physically Fit!!!!!!

oh man!!! Madagascar was sooo funny!! I liked Alex!! he can be sooo stupid sometimes...lol.. he and his inner lion self...bahahahaha.... and the dame penguins!! *you didn't see anything...* laughed my ass off!!!

But there were some malay boys who were soo freakin noisy..i got soo irritatted that i tilt my head back.... and bite there heads off!! *JOKING!!* i juz said "Some people very noisy ar...." a little bit too loud ahhah.... and my sis was all big eyed and hissed "wad ARE u doing??" lol and i juz laughed!!!

all in all Madagacar rocked!!!

till here....
*smile and wave smile and wave..*

ps: the coloured words u will only understand if u have seen the movie!

"be yourself day" yeah rite....

2005-05-29T20:21:00.001+08:00

ok so on friday we had our so called.."Be Yourself Day" where we could wear our home clothes and come to school... the four of us(fiza,ty,simi and me) decided to wear the 'harirama harikrishna' shirt... it felt abit weird to wear home clothes to school..

The plan was to meet ty at her bus stop at 6 and then fiza at the school bus stop..but our dear friend ty was still sleeping when i called her at 6!! i thought something was wrong when she did not sms me to ask me to get my ass moving at 5.50am hahaha..

Amazingly she got ready in 10mins and we ran for the bus to meet fiza... met fiza and she was like " ai!! i counted 55 people never wear home clothes already!!how??" lol soo cute lah she... Went inside and saw more people wearing school u..i tell u this people are just plain weird..when they have a chance to wear home clothes to school they don't want.... and when they cannot wear home clothes to school they complain...what the hell lah..

Went to my class and did simi's hair... one by one my classmates started coming in... all wearing sch u... i was like omg! will i be the only one wearing home clothes? thank god cruzz and the guyz wore outside clothes... then later found out that the malay girls also wore home clothes... hahaah

real early in class!!

My whole class started taking out their cam and started clicking away!! ahha i took alot of pics and here are some of them..

shasha and me..isnt she cute?

me and rinah.... cruz at the back..

Love my class... all the jokers and lamers.. 24 hour fun ride!!

the most 'popular' class! 4n3 2005! can u spot me?

after school went to look for the three of them and started to take pic.. then hajaz was walking alonng so we took pics of him with us!! he is just sooo cute! feel like pinching his cheeks!!

the three of us with the cute hajaz! hajaz and me!

We all took like about 30mins to decided where to go.. then decided to go to pioneer mall in some ulu place... the freakin 'mall' is onli 2 story high with onli like 5 or 6 shops... so don't waste your time if u think u can go shopping there...

Was bored during the ride there so took pics of course!! wad else?

me and ty on the bus

all smiles! does my hair look retro to u? that was wad ty said...

pizza and fishball. the twins!! lol

pizza, tairu, biscuit and fishball! awww....

guess which is which.. hey we do stupid things when we are together.. so sue us?!

Went to jp and simi left for home ao me, ty, fiza and cruz went to jp and went into every shop! went to toys'r'us and had soo much fun... even met mrs.bala finding a last min gift for her daughter!! ahahah

being loopy at toys'r'us

oh yar the food ws really nice.. me and ty bought indian rojak!! was really yummy and it was soo filling!!

the leftover of the food..muahahah

fiza and simi bought briyani with this large piece of chinken!!!! i was shocked!! and cruz bought some malay food!! he kept slapin me and ty!! soo irritatting!!

fiza with cruz at the back..

simi with red fingers..

when to 77th street and looked around... saw this cap below quite nice!! also saw this handbag which was sooo cute!! i am soo going to get that bag..once i save up the money lah and also the rayband which was $15!!!

for fun..

After that we walked aroung the place one more time and we headed for home!! was soo sleepy!!
Also got back my report book.. quite disappointed with myself... but i am happy bout my tamil marks! got A2 for tamil!! all in all my best 3 subjects i got 7 not too bad.. but.. i am aiming to get a 5!

ok lah till here!!
love ya..
muackz...

my feelings...

2005-05-18T21:28:00.000+08:00

Ever felt all empty inside you..
like you don't know who you are..

well.. lately i have been feeling really down... i feel all lonely even though i am surrounded by people the i love... it just feels weird inside... but yet you people see me smiling all the time...
sometimes i just one to go to one side and just breakdown and cry!! what in the world is happening... images of my grandma's funeral are coming back in my dream and i just start crying...

i soooo need to clear my head.. too much is happening around me...

all that aside.... Today marks the end of mid year!! *grins like a mad girl*

went to SIM with my sis and then to westmall library to borrow books for the hollies!! lol
on the way home went to buy roti boi *yums after soo long..emmmm* and my apple aloe..hahah
came home and watched "santa claus" and then went for a run-cum-brisk walk...lol
feeling soo sleepy and tired..my head and neck is bloody killing me.....
ARRRRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

k wadava gonna stop here....

tomm no school..i feel like going out with fifi they all..call me k....

muackzz...