Friday, September 01, 2006
"Be strong, Be strong now. Dunnoe where she belong.."
It's at this precise moment that i need to be strong, but the truth is I'm not. I'm scared to think of what the outcome is going to be.. I hope it's not to late to wake up now.. Everyday i feel like crying.. but when I'm at home i dont have the privacy to be on my own and cry... when i take the opportunity to lock my self in my room to cry when i am supposedly changing, i hear a knok on my door and i can't cry my heart out.. I've been carrying alot of things in my heart i think i'm going to go mad if i dont let it out... and yes i'm crying now with my bro sleeping on the floor of my room.. (see what i mean.... no privacy)
but seriously.. i cannot take it or control it anymore.. Why do I always do it to myself.. I never say the things i wanna say cos i dont wanna hurt anyone else.. thus i keep hurting myself with my own thoughts...
Many of u are changing, for the worst. Dunnoe if u are aware of it.. It's not a pleasent thing to witness and i'm not liking it one bit... Whats up with your 'tude... pls change...
Yes, i do not know where i belong... even at home, i feel out of place... in school i feel like im not there with the rest even if i am..
whatever.. no one gives a shit bout what i think anyways..
suji
