Tuesday, February 27, 2007 Labels: hired, job haunt, oh so random, service.
Went out with my pandis'. Went with the intention of finding work.. heehee.. Ended up in Bugis at Seoul Gardens for an interview..
In the end all 3 of us got the job, but sadly my ida behbeh not going to work with us due to some reasons..*sobsob*.. so it's just fifah and me.. i hope fifah starts work with me on thurs...*cross fingers* hehehe
YES! Suji FINALLY GETS A LIFE!! lol yay!!!
So pls do not come to Bugis Seoul Garden.. i do not want to serve u.. lol.. hehehe...
ok all this is like soooooooooooooo super random huh... wait la very soon all my entries will bout complaining bout work..hehehe
Sunday, February 25, 2007
I'm here, when will you make your move?
Things have been really random around here.. Wake up, watch tv or use the lappie, eat, sleep. haiz.. this just repeats everyday.. except for when we head to fifah's to lepak2 abit.. lol or just go out to hang.. haiz.. soooo bored...
I need to get a job like seriously, i need to get out of my home.. Suji needs to get a life..
It's a good thing that feelings can fade away...
Friday, February 23, 2007 Labels: lyrics, random, suji likes.
I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
they can go too.
I think I could like you
but i keep holding back
Cause' I cant seem to tell
if you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are..
Friday, February 16, 2007 Labels: beach, girlfriends, kuku pics, love., V'day
waiting to see the musical fountain..
Let's count! 1..
2..
3..
4..
5..
6...yay!!
They did not have the two huge ass fireball thingy at the end.. dissapointed..
zar asking for 'rokok'.. lol
I love making this face.. i influenced fifah and my sis!! lol
bossom buddies.. lol
no comment..
Friday, February 09, 2007
I have the most supportive parents in the world!! I love my mom and dad for not looking down on me and scolding me bout my results like most moms and dads do. We always take for granted the love and support our parents give us. The hours they put in i work just so they can earn money for us to live in comfort and have food to fill our tummy. But how do we thank them? By skipping school, lying to them, telling to stop nagging when they advide us and all the stupid we do to put them to shame. Have we really been a good child to them.
I know neither of them read my blog.. Maybe my mom does.. But I just really love them to bits and i never tell them this enough.. I really should. I LOVE U AMMA AND ACHA!!
I'll work hard!
Thursday, February 08, 2007 Labels: depression, giving up, O'level results, parents, siblings
Tomorrow is THE DAY. The day which will make or break my future. O'level results. Expectations are soo high even though no one tells me to the face. I know they expact me to get good grades and make them proud. But the question here is:can I?
God, my hands are shaking, my eyes are burning from the constant crying. They all think i can do it. But i really dont know. Having the pressure to get perfect results like my sister and brother even though it's not said i know they are thinking it. I know they have high hopes for me. And i'm scared to get back my results. I'm scared to see the dissapointment in my families faces. I'm scared to even go home if i dont do well. I dont know what to do if i do badly. I cant go home with results like that. I just cant. I dont want to see my parents faces drop if i do badly. I feel like i've been a dissapointment to them all these years and i cannot take it anymore. I dont want to let them down anymore.
They dont know how hurt I am when they say 'let's see if u can pass first' even if they meant it as a joke, it really hurts. like they know i'm going to do badly. Like they have lost hope in me. All my insercurities are back. I just feel so god damn depressed. And i HATE IT!!!
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
I spent my whole day at fifah's house.. Eating sara lee's choco pound cake and drinking sparkling wine! watching movies till i almost fell asleep... It's now 1.45am on the dot.. talking crap to fifah on MSN.. and bitching bout psycho's we know...
Random things like this makes me go tra la la HAPPY!!
I love my two PANDIs